The Character of a Black Swan

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Carol Moseley-Braun stated that “Defining myself, as opposed to being defined by others, is one of the most difficult challenges I face.” However if I didn’t define myself for myself (Audre Lorde) I would find my uniqueness subjected to other’s realities and perceptions of me. I search for my place in this world and I try to find who I am, however i can’t seem to understand why I am so different. I start to revert back to advice a friend gave me. She said be who you think you are because in this world you don’t find yourself you create yourself. So i think about my past and where I am now, and I come to the conclusion that I am extraordinary, I am spectacular, I am a black swan. A black swan is described as an event characterized by rarity, extreme impact, and retrospective probability. I’ve had to stare adversity in face many times in my life and somehow i always seemed to find a convenient coping mechanism. When i was younger I filled the void of my almost non-existent father with characters on television. I imagined he had this awesome job and he would come visit me when he had the chance, i was always proud of him. As long i continued to tell myself these lies. The relationship that a mother and daughter was supposed have i never had it. I had to deal with the fact that my mother dealt drugs when i was younger, however i just became stronger. In addition to my unpleasant home life, I was bullied at school. Every time someone got the chance they’d laugh at me for being
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