Torn and Confused, but I love You Essay

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Dear Michael, Love has taught me and has changed me since we've met. I knew you were the only man I have ever really loved and the only man I ever wanted to be with for the rest of my life. From the start I could see us together and I could hear my heart say, "I am going to marry him". I was shocked, but I was happy. Then my head and ego got in the way and my false pride took over and I played games. I began to see all the things about you that I wanted to change. False pride made me feel afraid that you did not love me and this caused me to feel insecure. Then ego gave you the "love test" and of course you failed. Now I know that false pride does not trust and ego does not know true love. When my expectations grew, my…show more content…
Yet, after breaking up, I hurt every day and I cried every night for several weeks. I hoped by some miracle you might intuitively know this. I did not believe the break-up might hurt you because, falsely, I believed you had no feelings for me. After the break up, I did not know where to go or what to do. Fortunately, love was still present and I finally surrendered and let it guide me through the hurt and the lessons I needed to learn. Gradually, everything became clearer and with the ego and the false pride out of the way, I began to grow and I came to realize my mistakes. In retrospect and with clarity, I could see how I loved you just the way you were. You were being yourself and that is what attracted me to you in the beginning. I wish I had never lost sight of that and I wish I had not tried to change you. If I am ever lucky enough to have you back in my life, I will never try to change you again. I will let true love direct our course. I saw you last night, with someone else. To my surprise, I became aware of the deep admiration and respect I have for you and for myself. I believe this to be an example of the unconditional true love I now know of. I am truly sorry for the hurt in our relationship and I am sorry that I did not know what I do now. But, perhaps it had to happen in order for us to be where we are now, and for me to grow. Michael, I never want you to hurt again. I believe that true love is

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