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What Does Depression Mean To Me Essay

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This is how I stay in the game “It may sound cheesy, but I need it… It may make me look conceited, weird, strange, uncool, different, adverse to you, but I need it and nobody is going to stop a champion.” When I’m in the gym my friends say I’m conceited. I’m not flexing with my shirt off and taking selfies with my phone, but I do look at myself… a lot. I use the mirrors to watch my form, but I also do something nobody knows about. To them all they see is me smiling at myself. I suffer from depression. The doctors say depression is a side effect from my concussions. To me it has felt like my mind has betrayed me. Finding the negative in every situation seems to outshine the positive. The doctors recommended anti-depressants and I have tried a few in my quest for optimal health. Personally, I didn't …show more content…

By prescribing me anti-depressants all my actions became largely affected by things that stimulated me in any positive way. My reactions and actions became ruled by what ever was a better dopamine high. Now I battle my depression with positivity. I don’t need drugs to feel good. I use diet, daily exercise and surround myself with positivity. I’m not condoning anti-depressants, but I'm not saying they won’t help you since they didn't work for myself. What did help me more then anything is my confidence building exercise I do daily. I look in the mirror and ignore the negative thoughts and my inner voice becomes overpowered by my inner Denzel Washington voice. All the negativity gets overpowered by Denzel going “Ah haha Who’s a champion? Ah hahaha You're a champion!” Then I smile and think about one thing I’m good at. It may sound cheesy, but I need it… It may make me look conceited, weird, strange, uncool, different, adverse to you, but I need it and nobody is going to stop a champion. I realized I needed to battle the negative thoughts with an army of positive thoughts

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