White Partners : A Straight Female

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I identify as a straight female. Although in the past I’ve only had white partners, I am attracted to a spectrum of men. Throughout my life I have always told myself that I was only interested in men. As I approached college more and more I became slightly more interested in women. I have felt like being attracted to men is what’s considered to be socially correct and so I fit into the cookie cutter. These ideas and thoughts are something I’ve only shared with two people. Being attracted to women is something that has always been slightly frightening to me. I’ve never had a sexual encounter with a woman so I am unsure if that would be something I am interested in. Recently, before arriving at UNC Charlotte, I have said that I want to experiment some to make sure that men are really what I am interested in. Having said that, I have no idea how to even find myself in that kind of situation. It seems so foreign to me, which is partly what scares me away from the idea. Also, of course, being afraid of what other people may think or say about me is another discouragement. I don’t want to be disliked based on my sexuality, something that I can’t help. On the other hand, I don’t want people in my life that can’t support my decisions and how I choose to live. I often find myself out checking out women as much as I check out a man. Something else that frightens me is the idea of actually having sex with another woman. I’ve only known sex with a man. I feel like there will be
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