The death of a loved one is one of the most challenging events I have had to overcome. The summer of 2014, I was just going into my junior year, was one for the books. It was an absolutely amazing summer. My sister had her first baby in May and we were getting to make his first summer his best, but little did we know it would also be his last. We lost him at the end of July. It was one of the hardest things to cope with. So many unanswered questions still to this day stand. The morning of July twentieth we received a call, I remembered I had a very bad feeling about my nephew the night before but I decided to just sleep it off. When I heard my older sister on the other end bawling my heart had just completely drowned down into my stomach. …show more content…
I did not want to attend church, I did not want to have family time, and all I wanted to do is be with my friends. It does not seem like a bad thing, but I chose the wrong friends to turn to. They were the friends that made it seem okay to drink, to push your feelings away and to feel absolutely nothing. For a couple of months this is what I thought would help me heal, and I was wrong. I had become a whole new person I became a person my friends seemed to like more than who I had been because I was actually wanting to have fun. It was this way until the end of November. In November I let someone into my life and they became my new best friend. It was so easy to trust them. I opened up and told them about the choices I made and the way I have changed. I despised the person I had become, but my friend helped me out of it. It took about three months to become the person I had once been. It all started with making new friends and going to church and actually listening. Once this made me feel like the girl I had once been, I slowly drifted away from the group who only wanted me around because I wanted to have fun. It amuses me because these ‘friends’ did not care that I was out of their lives. Once I surrounded myself with people who truly cared about me and encouraged me to be a better person I began to finally feel again. I got to feel angry, sad, happy, and joyful again, and nothing made me feel better about
I wait at the door. I put on my solemn, grim face, I cannot let these children see me as a soft women. I am anything but that, well I guess I am, but we all need to hide our inner emotions some how. My useless husband, Hans, mumbles, “I see the car”. We step outside, most people think Hans and I are crazy for opening our home to these two children, but every little bit of money that we can earn helps. Plus, they can help with the laundry, I think and smile.
Witnessing death was something that came surprisingly easy for me. I didn’t scream, I didn’t become sick, I was oddly settled.
My mom called me to a family meeting,I wandered down the stairs knowing that he had been sick but I never thought that this could have ever befallen upon me.When I walked into the living room tears ran down my moms face like the rain rolling down the window. I new what had transpired but I still would not accept the truth, I kept saying NO! NO! NO! But There was nothing I could do It felt like the walls were closing in, then I realized that he was in a better place and that his memories would always stay with me in my actions and words.
Mother is long gone. Even though she died nearly 3 years ago I still feel empty. Ever since, it has been my responsibility to take care of grandmother even though she believes I’m the one who killed her only daughter. This is why she refuses to live with me, she thinks I’m going to kill her as well because I have cruel vengeance against them for taking me away from my father at such a young age. They thought he could never change from his old ways. But truth is that it is unknown of how she died but it was too much of a coincidence to grandmother that me and mother were in a fight and we were all alone in our small house right out of town, all I remember is running up to her room after hearing a loud crash and all that was left of her was gone. The police gave up the investigation knowing 100% sure that she was dead by the amount of blood that was left behind by her thinking she would have bled out before she
Cozy coffee shops, warm summers, friendly hugs…1.2.3. Disastrous events occur all the time. We are always aware that someone, somewhere in the world, is hurtling forwards into tragedy. Tragic endings leave behind unanswered questions, unfulfilled dreams, unspoken thoughts. Those who love you are left behind, in the dust of your presence, spent to forever remember only your memory, not your existence. Crisp slices of toast, piping hot cups of tea, fresh strawberries…1.2.3. We all tend to forget an end exists. We spend our lives compiling as many happy memories as we can, fully enjoying the good days, deeply mourning the sad ones. When tragedy strikes, only then are we reminded that the end is there, and we scurry and try once again to make the most out of
Being an only child, and being distant from my friends, due to the recent death of my cousin Suleiman, I really did not know who to talk to. So I kept my days, weeks, and months worth of emotions and feelings bottled up and to myself. This depression transformed me into some one I could not recognize. The smart, likeable, over achieving, responsible role model was disappearing from my life and this
Recently, I have experienced a change which has caused joy in my life. I made the decision to leave all my friends and everything
I felt like I had no one. I craved positivity and motivation for me to fulfill a happy and successful; life with no misery and loneliness. Back at home, I had my mother and my stepfather, whom I was also scared to talk to. She had spent most of her time taking care of him, as he was a cancer patient. Although she was busy, I spent more time with her than I ever did before, she was the happiest she had ever been. Their relationship had a huge role in my change. They were both such humble, loving and strong people, it was contagious. Being in that environment gave me strength to overcome my obstacles. I asked myself, if they could go through harsh circumstances, then my problems were small and I wanted to overcome them and become a positive person. I slowly evolved into a stronger and more independent person. I became my own support system. I would go home, do homework, study and try my best to learn the language. All I had to do was make
It wasn't until High School where I realized this wasn't the case and embraced the idea that maybe if I just gave it a chance, I would be able to heal and get better. I understood finally that depression didn’t define me and that it wasn't the deciding factor for everything I did.
The leather feels cold under my fingertips as I sit on our living room couch. My feet are propped up on the small coffee table, banging together lightly in boredom. Mom sits with me, our shoulders barely touching. It's only been twelve hours since I found Laura in the alley and the police already want to put us into protective custody. I don't want to go, but there is nothing tying me here anymore. Laura's gone.
The call was from the hospital. We suspected something horrible had happened. I started crying right there. My mom turned the car around and sped back to Good Samaritan hospital. At around 1:15 my mom and I rushed into the hospital and ran back onto the floor that he was on. My mom got there first, she stopped in the doorway and that’s when I knew something was wrong. I started to sob harder. I fell to the floor sobbing into my hands. When I heard my Grandma cry out in anguish, I knew it was all over for my Grandpa. I
First off is my friends I ditched my one friend Nathan d, because he was changing me into somethings I wasn't and I got 2 new friends. I have been really busy with them hunting and all. I also have had some bad people in my life I ditched.
I'm trying to recall the people I met last night. Please help to remember them.
I remember the exact feeling that came over me when I first heard very clearly. My mom then came in from another room and was extremely pale. Her eyes were as watery as a flooded river during a storm. I saw her, and she saw me. We both, crying like babies, had a long and love-filled embrace in the middle of my house. I am not going to go into detail about everything else that happened, but no more than two hours after that moment my mom and I were in a car on the way to the airport to fly to England. This was one of the hardest plane rides I have ever had to experience. When we arrived to my mom's hometown, Liverpool, an array of sorrow and sadness filled the air. On the other hand, there was also a huge feeling of love. I felt a deep connection with every one of my family members. We were all together, and nowhere else would we rather have been at that time. We went on to grow so much closer as a family.
I got out of my group of friends that were excelling in school and took part in extracurricular activities, for friends that didn't care about my wellbeing. Temporary high’s and temporary blackout’s were the priorities of my new friends. They encouraged getting high on school nights and drinking and driving on the weekends. I was so severely damaged that I didn't care, I was blinded by a darkness that pushed me under a black cloud of guilt and sadness.