¨Sasha,¨ my trembling voice whispered to my best friend's sleeping form, ¨Sasha, Sasha, Sasha¨. I continue to whisper-yell her name and was about to start pinching her until she whipped around and started yelling at me ¨What, Alice! what could you possibly want now, I´m trying to sleep, I woke up at four thirty to get ready and I want to be left alone.¨ she says and then turns back around. Her bloodshot eyes are starting to close as she settles back down in her sleep and starts ignoring me again. I look at her in shock, it was her idea to get the earliest flight so we could get to the dorm and explore the shops and get settled in. I turn to look away but then my eyes get big because I remembered I was right by the window and Sasha seemed to forget that I was afraid of heights. I break out in a cold sweat and start to hyperventilate and look across Sasha into the rows and catch myself looking at Jack, as if he can tell someone is looking at him he looks up then turns his head at me and makes eye contact and I quickly look down. ¨Alice, are you okay.¨ Jack softly asks me. I look up into his big slanted almond shaped eyes that are looking at me quizzically, blush and quickly look down at my feet. ¨...Um,... yeah, I´m alright¨ my trembling voice now not related to my fear of heights. “Are you tired, Alice?” Jack asks me questionably with a confused expression on his face. “Yes! I'm tired really, really tired.” Tired, I think to myself, Really Alice that was the best you can come
“I- i think i'm fine , it’s not that big of a deal “ i reply trying to sound as normal as possible .
I lay my head against the wall and sigh. 'Feel?' Not sure if I feel anything physically or emotionally. I am always paranoid and assuming the worst that can happen to me. Been stuck in this tiny room. We have shared this room ever since she came here, which was last year. One door, one window, and book shelf with only a few books in English language which I have read more than I can count. I feel her hand on my shoulder which knocked me back to reality. "I'll be okay." I say softly.
“No I’m not too well!” she exclaimed. I saw the light peering from the exit.
He suddenly coughs, jerking up and a sigh of relief passes my lips. “I’m good,” he coughs, as his blood drips down his face.
He won’t stop looking at me, his face scrunched up like he’s about to either scream or pass out. “Jack—I really think you—“
"Are you alright, Sir?" she asked him a bit concerned. It took Ellis a few seconds to reply.
"Sorry, just tired, I'm fine, alright?" Johnny bit back a sigh, leaning back into his pillows. All he wanted at that moment was to find a way off the phone to get some rest.
I groan as I push myself to my feet. “Remus.” I say, he looks at me. “Can I ask you about something that’s been bothering me?”
"Uh, yeah. I'm fine." he said, hesitant with his words. Anybody could tell he was lying, that nothing was fine; his eyes gave it away. They made him look so helpless, so
“I’m ok, I’m ok,” croaked Jack. His head feebly shifted from side to side. Jack’s eyes began to flutter. He could see his mother kneeling in front of him.
"Octavia~I'm not going to hurt you but please stop rambling like a fool and talk to me" the voice said, it sounded angry and I was a little scared and confused. If it were anyone else, I would have laughed at them and said that they probably really did need to stop rambling and overthinking just like I am now. "Why are you calling me Octavia?"
“I got dizzy when I got up, so I decided to just lay here,” I said with a small smile. I didn’t mumble for once.
“I don’t know,” she replies, voice cracking. It’s brutally honest, probably not helpful either, but it’s better than lying.
“So…you still-you still want to, like, hang out with me and stuff? Even though I sleep a lot and sound like an idiot when I talk and can’t walk long distances and-”
"I'm fine," I answered in a shaky and rather unconvincing voice, attempting a brave smile.