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Cloudstreet Monologue

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I thought he wouldn’t speak to me, I don’t know.
I think I might need to go back home to Cloudstreet, just to see how Fish is going, just to be able to talk to him again… after all this time, I wonder if he even wants to see me.
I always have these bad dreams, I see myself in a field, that’s all.
I see myself lying there, waiting for the roos to come out, it’s an empty night, and all I can smell in the air is the grief and sadness. That’s when I hear something bashing in the grass around me. It’s a wounded roo I can see its head above the grass, must have not completely killed it.
I looked around to try and shoot the bugger, to put it out of its misery. A man in the distance running through the field, coming towards me, as he comes closer I spy through my cross hair. He is yelling, he’s in a lot of pain, he’s screaming, he’s crying. He’s staggering across the field. …show more content…

Something still compels me to take the shot though; I can feel my finger still itching on the trigger. What am I doing? Something is drawing me closer and closer to taking a shot, I just can’t resist it. Then he’s gone, the bugger’s going. I’m gone, just disappeared, just like that.
What am I…. was I about to... Pull the trigger… I hope not…
Every night I continue to see myself running, some sort of strange force compels me to pull the trigger, but I make it out just in time. But some nights I see Fish, just waiting there, standing there, and expecting me to do something. Expecting me to… I love Fish I can never stand to…
Sometimes he says something, yells out, “Who’s the man quick? Who’s the man?” As if he doesn’t know I am seeing

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