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Growing Up Is Wrong Essay

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They tell me it’s wrong to look at little kids, but it feels so right. Getting away with it is the hardest part, living under my parent’s roof controls every aspect of my life. I have to hide the pictures in my textbooks, and hope that they don’t fall out during class, or that my lab partner doesn’t mix up our books. The interest started this summer, when I had a broken leg, and I could see her playing as I retreated to the front steps of our home. She lived this great childhood, riding her bike, playing with friends, running around in her swimsuit. I swear, she had a new friend over everyday. I loved watching them play in the sprinkler that was set to go one every night before twilight. I seldom had visitors. Some kids I interacted with at …show more content…

Most could hear it when they would lay down for bed. For that reason, no one ever imposed of how stagnate I am on the front steps. I felt like I was made to watch over her, I was her protector, if I couldn't see her parents then the duty of keeping her safe was put on me. My cast will come off in 1 week. That will be the first time I will approach her. I found my sister’s favorite doll. It was with her that last night in the hospital. She loved that doll. She will love that doll. Sometimes i can see her with the binoculars I got for birding years back,. Why my aunt thought I would enjoy birding is unclear to me. When i wake up and ly there I just think about how i feel different. What used to interent me doesn’t anymore. People are saying I act different, I don;’t feel remorse when i would break something, and how six months ago i would. They also point out the way i cant keep me\yself attentive on one subject , or how i tume people out when they’re talking to me. No one understands how I’m feeling. How much I hate my life. How I am barely able to get down a staircase. How all I want to do it go into her room and tell her how i care for her, how she should come and be with

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