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I wiped away the tears brought on my my fathers words. Kill yourself. I thought that i would always have him, if no one else. I looked up and stared into his eyes. Blue like mine and id never hated anything as much as those eyes. They were cold and merciless. I pushed back more tears and felt the sting of regret. Why did i think hed understand me? I thought telling him i was gay would help our relationship but never had i been so wrong. I choked on the thousand things i wanted to say and he shook his head at me. "Maybe i will..." i stammered before running out into the cold night air. Why me? Why couldn't i look at a girl and want her? Why is it that only another man can make me feel love so truly? It was passed midnight by the time i got to …show more content…

I'm really sorry, it's just the life that I had to live it was too much. My parents hated me because I wasn't their perfect little straight boy and i would never be. Well at least my dad did, I never got a chance to tell my mom. I hope she would have been better by about it. I'm sorry to anyone who has to find my body. Im sorry for anyone who has to clean up the mess and most of all I'm sorry for anyone else who feels like i do. Like i did. Wherever I go, heaven, hell? if such a place does exist I really hope they dont go the same way that I went. I really hope that one day everyone like me, all the gay and lesbian people out there and the transgender people out there and everyone else in between can be accepted and loved because even though we're not perfect that doesn't mean that we're not people too. It doesn't mean that we deserve to be treated better or worse than anyone else it just means we deserve to be treated like everyone else. You've never heard a staight kid tell their parents their straight and have them be kicked out of the house the house and told to kill themselves. why would you tell that to anyone? To anyone that has ever or will ever tell someone that: fuck you and I hope one day you can see what you do by saying something so horrible. Goodnight world, and goodbye... *** "Where...where am i?" i tried to sit up but felt a stabbing pain. I heard a clammer and soon saw a boy about my age standing over me "Hes up!!" …show more content…

It was a soft and raspy voice. It almost deep but kept an innocence to it. I almost wanted to stay asleep just so hed keep talking. Yet again if i opened my eyes i could see his face. I heard him sigh and begin to stand up. I didnt want him to go. "Wait..." i muttered and he turned around as i sat up. "Where am i?". He looked at me with the most tender expression " I... I saw you jump...". I felt a pang of saddness. " But im alive-" " i saved you..." i saw a blush creep on his cheeks. "Why?" i asked trying to fight my own blush down and ran my hands through my black hair. No blood. There wasn't any blood on me at all. I began to wonder if he washed it out and blushed harder. "Why did you save me?". He ran his hand through his hair and looked up again. "I thought you should live..." he placed the journal on the nightstand next to the bed. " I remember coming out when i turned 16 about a year ago and i had the same issue but my aunt was more accepting so i moved out here..." my eyes widened and my heart jumped. He was gay. I couldnt help but smile "Whats your name?" he asked "Im nyle..." i told him. He smirked "Im bryant .". Bryant...Bryant Bryant Bryant... I repeated in my mind. I liked it. "Cool." he gave a soft chuckle " it's a good thing when you landed you hit you ass or else you couldve died." i blushed more. "Relax im just messing with you. You hit your head too but there isn't much serious injury except a broken rib." he leaned in

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