Every day, we tend to base our actions on fear. We are afraid of getting poor. We are afraid of getting old. We are afraid of being criticized. We are even afraid of death! When we come up against something new or different, we become uncomfortable and nervous. This causes us to pause and evaluate our options. Indecision crystallizes into doubt and the blending of these two results in fear. This is where disconnects occur. We tend to rely on “gut feelings” to make decisions. So, of course, we stop dead in our tracks and choose NOT to take that next, scary step. That’s when fear masters you.
I have been dealing with unfounded fears of fear. It was all started when I learned swimming. I was in the elementary school. I practiced at the Bulungan Sport Arena. It is about 15 kilometers away from my house, but only 2 kilometers away from my mother's office. So, my mother can easily check on me whenever she wants.
At the beginning of the training, the coach introduced us to the training methods. In the first month, we will occupy the shallow pool to get us comfortable with the water. After that, we will move to the deep pool to applied swimming styles, as well. All went well until my mum came to my last session in the shallow pool.
“Mbak Anna!” she said in a half screaming.
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The pool was dirty and unkempt. Moreover, the water was green and slimy. We were like “cendol”. My mother asked me to stop swam there because she was afraid I would get skin diseases. Finally, I switch to another sport, which is not in the contact with water. However, my eagerness to swim was very high. Then, I asked my mother's permission for swimming. She was let me, but with one condition: do not swim in the deep pool, so I would not get drowned. In the next decades, I spent my life rock-style swimming in a shallow pool, until my friend introduced me to
When I was five years old, I joined the Carroll Aquatic Swim Team. I stuck with it because I loved being underwater, feeling the refreshing water all over and the sensation of touching the wall, finishing first hearing the people holler. When I got older I just didn’t have much care for it. So, I decided that I wanted to give up. Then, my mom told me that I should finish the season than I could determine, nevertheless, I did as I was told. At my last meet, my mom signed me up to swim the IM which is when you swim all four strokes. I was convinced that I couldn’t do it because I had never done it before. I told my mom that I couldn’t and I would fail, but my friend convinced me that I should do it. She told me that I would only disappoint people if I gave up; consequently, I swam and received first place. In conclusion, I ended up feeling the same exciting feeling as when I was five.
My head went back, and my feet popped up. I felt the frigid water seep into my hair, and soak my scalp. I heard my mom’s soft voice trying to keep me calm, and reminding me to keep my bellybutton up to the air as if some puppet master was holding it up by a string. Every time my mom tried to let me float by myself, my feet would begin to sink. It was as if I was a weight on a fishing line pulling it down into the dark abyss. I couldn’t seem to stay relaxed, I was as stiff as a two by four. That fire was still burning my inner forest deep within me. I remember startling myself out of the float, because I did not feel my mom’s hands supporting me anymore. I scrambled for footing on the bottom of the pool floor feeling the rough pool floor slip past my toes a couple times before I got the traction to stand up. I was kind of confused for a moment as I tried to get the water out of my eyes and nose. My family was now all out in the pool area, and I realized the moment I have been dreading for the past few years of my short life was here and I knew it. My family was going to have me jump off the diving board, in hopes that it would dissipate my excruciating fear of water. My heart was beginning to pound through my
My parents tell me that I took to swimming like... a fish takes to water. It is a safe place where I can float free of worries. Driven by passion and dedication, I decided to begin swimming competitively. Competitive swimming requires an intense level of determination and discipline. Forcing myself to get out of my warm bed at 5:30 in the morning to put on a still-slightly-damp swimsuit and stand in 40-degree weather waiting for practice to start. Putting up with limited lane space and irritating swimmers who think they are faster. Making a conscious effort to work on my stroke form, turns, touches, and techniques. The water becomes a whirlpool of injuries, losses, wins, friendships, enemies, and sickness. The water becomes home.
I thought to myself “What if I’m not good enough? What if I dislike it as much as I remember? What will the Lyman Hall kids be like?” These worries only lasted until I opened the front door of the school, because I was greeted by many familiar faces. I shook hands with the captains, Victor Jacome and Robbie Driscoll, whom I had known from my previous swim team. The first practice was very difficult; in years past, I would have considered it to be very mild and easy, but I hadn’t tried to swim in a competitive manner in a very long time, and even after a couple laps, every muscle in my body ached. This was a very foreign feeling to me because I hadn’t felt this way since I first started swimming when I was 10 years old. At the peak of my conditioning when I was around 14 years old, I could swim a full mile, or 66 laps at a competitive pace, without stopping, and I would feel fine. However, like riding a bike, there is muscle memory involved, and after a few more practices swimming started to feel more like I remembered it. Despite this, some things still felt different; I changed a lot in 2 years: I grew from around 5’8 to 6’1 and went from very scrawny to somewhat a normal amount of muscle. These physical changes were beneficial to my swimming of course, and I felt myself traveling farther in the water with each stroke, therefore being more efficient. When swimming
As it was my first time learning to swim, I was terrified every time I was instructed to perform a stroke. As I attempted to swim across the pool, I would desperately cling onto the lane lines and swim near the pool wall. My early swim career was plagued with failure; I was unable to perform the exit skills required to exit the intermediate level, which I would repeat three times before being able to pass (cmp/cpl). The following summer I was placed into the advanced level, yet again would repeat this level four times until I was unable to proceed levels. Disheartened, I would stopped taking lessons until I decided to swim again during the summer following freshmen year of high school. This time I was placed into pre-team, the highest level for swim lessons. Despite struggling during the first few sessions, I learned with fervor and tremendously improved my swimming, abilities, inspired by my placement into pre-team. Because of this improvement, I was eventually eligible for the club’s swim team. Ever since I have completed pre-team, I continuously swim on my own during my free time.
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After I decided to not learn how to swim. I decided to focus on qualities that I was could actually achieve. With this in mind; I worked hard and got good grades, was able to play the piano, was able to use a personal computer, and was able to construct vehicles using Legos. . However, I still felt incomplete because I didn’t know how to swim. When i was in elementary school, many of my classmates bragged about how well they performed during their swim meet or how much of fun they had in the pool. I’ve finally told myself that enough was enough, so I asked my dad to sign me up for swimming lessons. With pleasure, he signed me up for a swim course that lasted two weeks in the community center. Upon walking into the center, I came in with the impression that swimming lessons would be easy because of how fun my classmates made it sound. Unfortunately when the class started, the fears of entering the water haunted me again as I