My First Day After Journal Entry

Every effort brings me closer to recovery. Tonight I rest and renew my body and mind. When I wake I will begin another day in recovery.

During my first week of this experiment went well. It wasn’t until I was going into my second or third week that I started having cravings, triggers and some mood changes. I read several pages in the “Six Essentials for Achieving Lasting Recovery” book,

“The First Day” is a story about a five-year-old girl and her first day at school. "Even Sundays when I was in her womb, my mother has pointed across I Street to Seaton as we come and go to Mt. Carmel", her mother had always wanted her to go to Seaton Elementary School because it was right across from her church. However, when they entered the school to register, the teacher informed them that they lived "beyond the area that Seattle serves". When the young girl asked her mother “Mama, I can’t go to school?”, her mother responded, “One monkey don’t stop no show”.

About three months ago I was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes this is my second huge event but i'm going to take you back about 2 years before. Back when drinking heavily, popping pills (taking extraordinary amounts of muscle relaxers) and doing cocaine was the thing to do next to waking up at noon everyday. I started doing it all when I lost someone close to me. My grandfather, my role model ,

Almost a year ago I suffered a brain injury by the hands of my own husband. That day has forever changed my life, but in an ironic way it was also for the best. I began seeking The Lord and Praying for strength to get through all the difficulties the days would bring and to my surprise I was able to get through things I never thought I would have to. The struggles in my life are only compounded by the symptoms the brain injury is already showing but for the first time in my life I find complete happiness in The Lord. I am a recovering addict after thirty years of addiction I never thought something such as The Word could help ease the pain I've experienced but it does. My walk with The Lord gets stronger everyday and I know He knows I'd spend

I would spend two days at school and four days at home recuperating from the stimulation. The agony that I had lived with for over a year was only increasing. The cocktail of medicine was not working again so it was new medicines with new side effects. Finally, we came across a new doctors office with unusual medicine for migraines that worked. That was my last hospital stay and I returned to school and my life. For the first time, I didn’t have an intense, throbbing, pain that made me retreat to lightless, silent

I was proud of myself for not having any lapses this period. I was also proud that my attitude was exceptionally improved from the Reduction Period. I was less irritable about not having sugar and I was able to manage my stress without becoming overwhelmed. This exercise reiterated to me to how much one’s environment may affect your behavior or addiction. However, despite the availablilty and prevalence of sugary treats, I was less tempted or interested. The most intense craving I had actually lasted several days, but it was brought about by the stress, frustration, and disappointment of preparing and taking the CPCE exam. This craving was so intense that I began going to extreme measures to satisfy the craving (i.e. trip to Fresh Market to get a bunch of weird ingredients to make fruit sweetened brownies). In this process, I realized how ridiculous I was being and was able to walk away from the store. This actually made the craving go away when I realized how desperate I was being. I think that this craving gave me a small insight into the situations drug addiction can create. That is to say, it helped me to understand that a craving may not be momentary, but may last for days. In addition, it helped me to understand the lengths one my go to in order to satisfy a craving. I think this has provided me with some

Today is the last day of our clinicals in the facility, and I would say that from the first day up to today I have learned so much and grown so much as a student nurse. I remember that very first day of clinical, I had no clue on what to expect and what to do, and I was so nervous that I would made mistakes. However, as I became more exposed to the clinical, I gained more confidence on doing things, applied the concept I learn during the class into practice, and gradually improved my communication skills with the residents. Today, I was able to learn about certain medications by going through the chart and by the help of our instructor. I learned how the medications work to treat and manage particular diseases. Also, I was able to creatively

Thank you for your email and sincere wishes regarding my recovery. The recovery process is going a little slower than I would have liked for it to go, but I can only follow the doctors recommendations and know that these things take time, and that some bodies may take a little longer to heal. I try to put things into their proper perspective and know that what I have incurred is only a fraction of what others have had to face in life. So, I’m thankful for this season in my life and know that God’s grace and timing can always be counted on and that if we will draw closer to Him, He will draw closer to us.

Plus on top of that was follow the rules of what the doctor ordered me to follow. Time was ticking slower than normal for me; minutes felt like hours and hours felt like days. The whole recover period couldn’t end soon enough for me. Although, when time was passing by slower I started to have more thinking time and I started to realize that I was rethinking about my problems due to the sleep apnea. I started to question myself “what if nothing changes and all these problems from the past are just me being me.” “Does this mean I’m not set up to belong in this world?” And suddenly I decided to spend more time reading my Bible just to test if the surgery actually fixed my problems from before. At first I noticed that my reading and comprehension skills have became so much better since reading now became crystal clear to me. I stumbled upon verses that told me about how valuable I am to him in his eyes and that all this pain and suffering we go through in this life is only temporary and we shouldn’t shy away from our greatest fears. Instead it teaches that when we trust in him and put our faith toward him that I won’t have to face my fears alone and that I shall cast all my worries up to him. After I spent time with God, out of nowhere I felt so at ease like I never did before. I began to notice how crystal clear my life was previous of the surgery. I wasn’t living the way God wanted me to live and I never really put my heart towards him. I thought I had a relationship with him only to find out I simply just knew who he was and not make my life revolve around

My journey has been long. Not being able to talk for months, not being able to work,

the waves were rolling off the shore and the sun's rays were dancing on the water,

It’s easy to see why addictions are difficult to recover from and why it’s considered a lifelong practice, when you experience it firsthand. The process of abstaining was a long and arduous one. I learned that it takes commitment, courage, and the desire to change. In order to create change, you have to create balance in all areas of your life, because this issue not only affects the addict, but the people around him or her as well. I learned that recovery is a lifelong process full of good days and bad days, but that it can be attainable if you don’t give up. For me, choosing to refrain from sugar prompted me to commit to permanently changing the way I look at sugar and the way I use sugar. When I don’t consume sugar, I feel better, my moods and emotions are stable and don’t feel sluggish or tired. The feeling that I get from not eating sugar makes me want to continue with controlling the amount of sugar in my

Diary entry one: As of recently, life has been pretty difficult for our whole family. We haven't been getting much money off the farm since prices on crops dropped. And, my mom lost her job because the company wasn’t making enough money to support its workers. She is unable to find a new job, because the same thing is happening to a lot of companies in the same field, and she lacks experience in any other job. I just really hope that things go up from here because we seem like we have hit rock bottom and it is very difficult.

It’s been eight antagonizing hours and now the moment has finally arrived. As if it has soaked up a liter of Pepsi, my hand begins to shake with excitement as my pointer finger reaches for the mouse. With no direction needed to its location, the mouse quickly moves towards the shut down button on my computer screen. I feel energy gaining with each passing second, and then suddenly, “Your computer is unable to shut down at the moment, please wait for all of the programs to close.”