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The opposite of depression is note happiness, but vitality. And that was vitality that seemed to seep away from me in that moment. Everything there was to do seemed like too much work. And one of the things that often gets lost in discussions of depression is that you know it’s ridiculous. You know it’s ridiculous while you’re experiencing it. You know that most people manage to go through their daily routines and it’s not a big deal and yet you are nonetheless in its grip and you are unable to figure out any way around it. And so I began to feel myself doing less and thinking less and feeling less.

It was a kind of nullity. And then the anxiety set in. It is like that feeling you have if you’re walking and you slip or trip and the ground is rushing up at you, but instead of lasting half a second, the way that does, it lasts like forever. It’s the sensation of being afraid all the time but not even knowing what is is that you’re afraid of. And it was at that point that I began to think that it was just too painful to be alive, and that the only reason to not kill oneself was so as not to hurt other people.

After being admitted to the hospital I started with meds and therapy... And I also started reckoning with this terrible question:

“if I have to take medication is …show more content…

Grief is explicitly reactive. If you have a loss and you feel incredibly unhappy, and then six months later, you are still deeply sad but you’re functioning a little better, it’s probably grief, and it will probably ultimately resolve itself in some measure. If you experience a catastrophic loss, and you feel terrible, and six months later you can barely function at all, then it’s probably a depression that was triggered by the catastrophic circumstances. The trajectory tells us a great deal. People think of depression as being just sadness. It’s much, much too much sadness, much too much grief at far too slight a

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