Journal 6
This week has been one of hardest weeks I have had to endure since the break of Jeffery and I. I have not been able to focus on absolutely anything. My children do not notice that I am going through this pain, at least I don’t think that they have noticed. I am in church praying and hoping that God will make a way for me soon, but as of right now, I am wearing an artificial smile on my face to hind the grief I am subdued to everyday.
I use to think the hardest thing a woman would ever have to go through in her life would be child birth. However, I am learning that women have numerous of emotional obstacles on a daily basis. As I have stated before, I am a single mother, in school, trying to obtain my associate degree in Healthcare Reimbursement and I am not working. I have
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I would have financial stability and it would be something to do daily that could possibly take my mind off of my issues. To be honest, the break-up is what really has me down. I am trying to be strong and I know that I have to be. I just can’t stop thinking about him. I have prayed that God would take away this pain, even the love that I have for him, but I feel like I love him more today than I did yesterday. I really just want him to call me or text me so I would know that he is thinking of me just as much as I am thinking of him. I hate feeling weak and helpless, and my pride will not let me call him because of the way the relationship ended. Furthermore, if anyone should be calling, it’s him. Part of me thinks if I don’t call and keep praying about it, I will eventually get over him and these feelings that I have for him, and another part of me wants to break down and tell him how much I love and miss him, but I don’t want to be weak. I’m praying for strength, patience, and endurance every single day, but I am obviously doing something tremendously wrong because I am home when I should in Mrs. Forrester’s class right
In October of 2012 my son was born. I put my plans on hold and focused on providing for him. I wanted him to have everything I had as a child. My mother worked day and night when I was younger. I can still remember holidays where she'd wake up at the crack of dawn just to prepare a full feast and go to work that afternoon. I knew the importance of sacrifice and hardwork. I also wanted my son to experience the chance to have his father around. I wanted it so bad that I endured two long years of mental and
Hi guys! This past weekend we were graced with a much needed fall break. After a few weeks of constant studying, it was nice to have a four day weekend to sit back and relax. After my two tests on Friday I drove seven hours to meet my dad and my girlfriend's dad in Pittsfield Illinois for a few day hunting trip at a lease that my dad has. It was a long drive, but it was worth it when I arrived to a 16oz prime rib at one of my favorite restaurants, the Red Dome. Unfortunately the corn and soybeans had not yet been cut around our farm so we did not see as many deer as usual, but we still had fun and relaxed for a few days.
I finally woke up feeling better than I had the day before and I instantly knew the plans God had for me. He gave me an unbelievable amount of strength that I had no idea one person could obtain. I finally accepted that adversity was inevitable and I was no longer going to let it break me. Overcoming adversity is one of the biggest challenged in life and when we finally have the courage and strength to face it; then we will see the purpose God has for us. God will never give up on you and he will never leave your side. I continued to pray until I was no longer in such a bad state of mind. I learned to accept what God had put me through at such an early age as the best blessing I have ever received. Suffering built perseverance and hope that I never thought I had, he took my dark time and turned it into a gift. My experience is not a misfortune, it is something God gave me to be able to serve others. In times of difficulty, no one knows what God is doing with their life but he made me realize what I was capable of overcoming if I trusted in him and never lost faith. He turned something so terrible into something amazing. This showed me that he is always there even when I feel alone and he is never going to leave me in a hard time. I am blessed to be able to be there for others in times like this and give them advice or just be someone to talk to. This experience has influenced me to take on a career in psychology so no one ever
Only one of my friends is in to hiking. The other, well they do not mind it, but they do not get out a lot. Same with me, I would love to, but it is very rare that I have a full day off, and have people who want to go with. That why I chose to do my practice journey during my March Break, and told my friends they had to do it with me. So during the Tuesday (one of the three days I had off work) I packed a hiking bag, picked them up, grabbed Pita Pit for lunch, and drove up the mountain.
The pasts few months have been a challenge, becoming a dad to my first child. Making a major move for my family and myself. Moving halfway across the country, starting a new career, and going to college too. There was so much worry and stress. I did not know if I would do good in my job or my schooling. My family and I made the decision to give it all to God. He
Coach Shapiro raises his monogrammed aluminum whistle and it is the most unholy sight I have ever laid my eyes on. I allow myself to exhale. I attempt taking in the air of the room when I inhale. Instead, I am greeted with the sweet ripe smell of ‘determination’. Determination is Coach’s word for sweat, as in Ya ain’t had enough ‘til ya got determination all over your body or Practice ain’t over ‘til ya are able to fill a glass with your determination. My pores are boundless and eager. My anxiety starts to show itself through the determination that leaks off of me like a faucet.
I always say to my family, “One day we will cross la frontera!” Living in Guadalajara, Mexico was not for the faint of heart. My family didn’t have much money and it was hard watching them sleeping on dirt floors. Mama, Roberto, and Francisco deserved better that what they had. I always imagined us crossing over to the beautiful United States. I knew one day we would cross that border so my family could have a better life.
Everything you would expect in a perfect person. Perfect hair, perfect eyes, and a perfect at everything. That was a guy by the name of Drake.
I agree with you in your response to question three. The situation went on way too long. After the janitor was told not to come by the room and he then did it again, I would have called him in and issued a written reprimand for his personnel file.
My family is ok, my kids are in the school and working, Jhon had another surgery everything went well, he is in recovering and soon he will be fine.
One day there were four kids playing the playstation. Their names were Korey, Javi, Cole, AJ and Lane. Then Korey’s mom called all of them for lunch. Then they went outside, but there was a really old house. We asked my mom and she said, “ yes but but careful”. Then we decided to go to the house at night. So we ate dinner, and then went into my room to get dressed in black spy clothes. At about 11:50 we started to drive down to the old house by riding my atv. It took us ten minutes to get there. We made sure that we had all the gear that we needed. So we went inside, and we saw a dusty dinner table, and we saw old silverware.It was only 12:00 we promised my mom we would be back by 6:00 Then we stuffed started to get strange we was tired so
This day today is a hard one for all of us. Losing a loved one is the saddest event in our lives. When you lose a loved one, your heart feels heavy and sad. And that’s what I am going through right now.
Jeff Gerke says, “Telling stops the story. Description allows it to go forward” (126). In fiction writing, showing is placing the reader directly into a scene. Telling is reporting to the reader what happened, after the fact. You can pretend your reader is a fly on the wall witnessing the scenes surroundings, the action taking place, and the dialogue taking place at that moment in a scene.
Before I exploded, I finally spoke out my grades falling to my cousin Jeffrey, who is my age. I remember speaking to him about not wanting to be just another Hispanic statistic. I did not want to be added to a representation that disproportionately portrayed me as unintelligent or as academic failure (Martínez, 2017). I did not want to seek out professional services for my emotional support. This is common for Latino students because are less likely to seek out professional services for emotional support when they experience challenges in college, especially at predominantly White institutions (Cerezo&McWhirter, 2014). I had a mental breakdown about school and missing home, where I saw familiar faces. Although I appreciate my cousin being
From the first time it never got easier. There were still times when my dad would walk in on me crying. Everyone has a heart break in their life. Mine just so happened to be the one I thought would never leave, and the one I had planned my future with. July 16th, 2016 was the first day Brandon came to hangout with me, and the day i knew would change everything for me. Honestly, there was no other excitement in the world that could top the way my heart raced that day. He pulled up to the driveway in a black dodge megacab. Not knowing what how the night would play out I quietly jumped in the truck and we started a very basic conversation and surprisingly we both couldn't stop smiling. We headed to champaign to go to the car demolition since his family was running in it. That night after the demo’s we went to his house and he had talked me into sitting down right beside him so he could ask me to be his girlfriend, and of course i said yes. Looking back now I should’ve said no.