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Personal Narrative-Davidoff Lights

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Three years on and a nightmare is still my reality; I’m haunted by her battered form and unseeing eyes whenever I close mine. - The thin cylinder brushed past my cracked lips, and I let my eyes flutter shut as I dragged the smoke into my body, letting it collect my anxiety, before exhaling my stress out into the open air in a white, spiralling cloud. Despite all the empty coffee mugs in my office, it always failed to surpass the nicotine. My eyes opened; I felt the heat of my cigarette make my insides flush and buzz all at once. Lazily, I scanned the area from the balcony I stood on, colossal buildings seeming insignificant beneath me. My gaze travelled to the nearly empty packet in my hand; “Davidoff Lights” it read, along with the warning. …show more content…

Smiling gently, the date on my calendar was circled in red marker. Our anniversary was today. Taking the time to zone out whilst continuing to stare at the date, I thought about how much my life had changed. Nature had become a favourite; watching the leaves go from beer-bottle green, burning up into the colours of fire and eventually descending to the ground holds levels of magic for the eyes. Some leaves were as red as that marker, which was now grey. It was grey. It had turned grey. It wasn’t meant to be grey. My heart stopped and my breathing froze, chills covered my body like a second skin. Cold sweat started to pour as I snatched my phone up and dialled her number. My fingers tapped impatiently in time with the blood pumping furiously around my veins, and I moved at super-human speed when there was no answer. Heading to the door I glanced at the photo again, only to pull my eyes away upon seeing our faces fading into a greyscale piece of the past. …show more content…

Every day I expect her to walk through the door, or come home to smell her cooking, or have her crawl in next to me and our combined body heat would make the bed toasty. No, the only heat I feel is the one coming from my Davidoff Lights. The only smell is the one of cigarettes and alcohol. Working like a team to numb my mind, they go perfectly together, just like we did. I looked in the mirror from where I sat; no colour was needed to see that the dark circles under my eyes were almost as black as the bruises that had burned themselves onto her pale skin. I miss her. The only one to miss me would be the empty bottles of alcohol. If fate is cruel enough to take someone so precious and perfect, surely it would have no problem taking the likes of

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