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I discovered at a young age that introvertism is misinterpreted as a symptom of elitism. “Well, that’s just rude,” is the classically disgruntled, yet not unexpected retort when I sheepishly admit to a classmate I actually prefer to sit alone at lunch. My admission is not as taboo as it used to be, but the subtle recoils and maimed egos are all too familiar. I am not shy or antisocial or a misanthrope. I tend to gravitate towards books and retreat from the frenetic dynamic of a high school cafeteria for the solace of an excessively air-conditioned, silent library. For some reason, these tendencies are usually met with a scoff. Ironically, I devour the spotlight; I will reluctantly shuffle up towards the stage but then a tangible shift in the Earth’s axis will occur, for me at least. I’m recharged onstage, pumped with unadulterated …show more content…

It began seven years ago with a simple announcement. “Any takers? This is your last opportunity.” I had promised my mother I would audition; the ultimatum seemed to be flung towards me, and settled in my lap as I squirmed, ridden with blistering guilt. In that moment, I salvaged a trace of reckless abandon and impulsively jumped onstage, prompting an onset of skittish whispers and dry coughs. My knees clacked together in jerky rhythm, as the squints of fifth graders on edge collectively fixed on my chattering teeth. The slightly muted titters weren’t unwarranted. It seemed no one could figure me out at that point; I was the unhinged class clown. At times I could be chaotic and rowdy, taking sophomoric (usually school food related) dares for fifty cents and yodeling during gym class. Later on, I would shut out my peers, and they would be left to stew, wondering if they’d done something wrong, when the case was I was simply engrossed in my own thoughts. As much as I’ve tried, I can’t shake this tendency to occasionally shut people

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