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Personal Values In My Family

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Through the prep work, I realized that my personal values were; to have an exciting life, a life filled with pleasure, a life filled with wisdom, be ambitious, and always maintain being broadminded. When analyzing my values, I realized that all of them were striving towards one overarching value, to have an exciting life. This value is so important to me because growing up, I didn’t like living. I grew up in a family that was very selectively religious. It was perfectly okay that my male family members would gather around and watch the explicit versions of Jerry Springer, but being gay gave you the express ticket to hell. All throughout my childhood, I would have incredibly intense and vivd dreams about going to hell, so much so that I was afraid to go to sleep. My mom would console this fear by telling me to pray about it which never worked. Throughout this time, I was being groomed to always be outwardly perfect as to not “embarrass” my mother. This left me in the confines of a world that everyone considered perfect while internally, I was living in hell. The hell I was living in was also incredibly isolating. Everyone around my family, even strangers, would always comment on how perfect my family was. In a sense, it negated the torture I was going through both at home and in school which were both incredibly homophobic environments. So when I got to college, it allowed me to gain the confidence to really be myself. I was able to do more of what I wanted without the

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