“What do you mean it’s not me, it’s you?” I cried, as I held the phone. “Trevor, I don’t understand how you could do something like this over the phone. We’ve been together since the second week of high school for goodness sake. Doesn’t that mean anything to you?” “Listen, this just isn’t working out. I’m sorry if it helps any I’ll let you keep the engagement ring,” he apologized. “Keep the engagement ring!” I echoed. “Keeping the engagement ring isn’t going to give me the time I invested in this relationship back. That’s ten years of our lives down the drain. Are you sure you just want to throw it all away? What’s gotten into you?” While Trevor rambled from the other end of the line about how he never had a chance to date and have fun; I took off the shirt I was wearing and wiped my face with it. “But, you don’t need to have fun. I mean we can have fun together, can’t we?” I blurted. “Summer, this relationship is a wrap. I’m sorry that it had to end like this. I’ll be over to get my things. You can live in the apartment until the lease is up next month.” “What about our wedding plans and the invitations that are waiting to be mailed on the shelf?” I stammered as I thought about the ivory cardstock with our names printed in the most elegant cursive font. “Don’t send them out and don’t tell anybody else about a wedding because there isn’t going to be a wedding,” he barked. “Oh, Trevor, you can’t be serious,” I sobbed. By the end of our conversation, Trevor
Carmilla shrugs, looking up at her with faux innocence, "But where's the fun in that?"
“It wasn’t to make a political statement or start a fight. We were in love and we wanted to be married.”
“Look, I just think it’s best if we just go our separate ways.” Next there was total silence as I heard him breathing through the phone. As I waited for his response, he suddenly hung up. I know I should be worried, but I’m not. All I’m worried about is seeing Jay.
“I imagine. It’s not what everyone expects. But yeah. I guess you don’t want to be with me now. You don’t want to take responsibility for this. It’s my fault, my fault for not using protection,” I said.
“I’m saying I’m sorry that I can’t be what you need.” Her mouth opens to reply. I cover her mouth with a finger, forbidding her to interrupt. “I don’t think I have it in me. I’m not built that way,” I tell her.
“What are you saying?” I ask already knowing the answer. She already has tears forming in the corner of her eyes , “I’m saying that maybe we should call off the wedding for now. Just until you have everything sorted out and everything goes back to normal.”
“What?”. “ I mean why did you want me to stay?” I answered. I just thought you had more left in you, and I think there still is.” he responded as he walked away.
“Two!” tears starting slowly forming in his eyes, but he shook his head, forcing to hold them back, he didn’t need their memory of the time Phil proposed to be with him crying.
“No one is seeing my pictures until after the ceremony when they are all ready.” I said when asked about the pictures (that I had not even take yet).
“Good. But there’s more. Before we wed and lie together for the first time, I want you to know that all is forgiven. My heart is open to you and you are the one and only woman I have ever loved, and the only woman I will ever love.”
“I know, but my folks are going on a “Save Our Marriage” world tour and they will be gone all summer.”
“I wish I could talk to him about it, especially now. This is the furthest we’ve been apart. Not in distance, but in our minds. My dad says it's not his fault if he has a girlfriend, and so does everybody else. Most of my friends are getting girls and I’m here, alone.” Josh Replied.
"To be honest, I’m kind of staying quiet about it. I respected the relationship and what we had, but I am not one to kiss and tell. She can take whatever road she wants to take. I just pray for her happiness and peace and hope she can get [past] it."
"I just got sick and tired of hiding our relationship," Allison said. "I know it's hard to come out of the closet. But still. Anyway, I broke up with her."
Hayden: Thank you, darlin, for making me the bad guy right now. I can only tell you the basics. I asked to break up just a couple weeks after New Years. I felt bad because Ronald written me the most nicest letter about our relationship surviving the New Year.