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Who Is The Best And Worst Thing?

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You’re the best and worst thing to ever happen to me and I can’t decide if I wish I never met you, or if I want to meet you all over again. In a dream I had once we sat on a couch overlooking the city. I said, “I’m scared of this whole thing breaking,” and you looked at me with those eyes that hold forests in them and said, “I have control, don’t worry,” and I said, “I’m falling,” and you said, “I’ll catch you. I’m ready.” I want to hand all of my fears over to you in your fingers so you can break them to pieces. The first time you looked directly at me, I forgot how to breathe. It was a good thing. Out here in the real world, it is raining and you’re not around to taste it. . I want to sign over my soul and body. Out here in the real world, you’d drop me. I want to tell you all my secrets. I want to tell you all my stories. I want to tell you I’m falling. Someone once told me ‘if you keep loving so much you’ll spend your entire life digging yourself out of the heart cavities of people who do not love you in the same way.’ And then, I couldn’t tell them that we talk about losing naïveté like shedding weight as though it’s the best thing that could happen to us and nobody told me that it’s okay to fall headfirst into people and if they move out the way, well it’s okay to collide with the floor too. Everyone talked about loving carefully, like it’s picking your way through a dark field at night and no one told me that loving is not dangerous or shy but grabbing fistfuls of

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