Trying to Avoid My Sister’s Couch
It all started when I was in elementary school Amy and I would write, direct, act, and edit home videos. To us it was entertaining, not realizing that later on in life I would return to this creative endeavor to save my life. Once we entered middle school creating movies was considered "uncool", so we stopped making them. However, I didn't stop it was just the beginning. It was the summer of 2003 when I was getting ready to go into middle school, but the universe had different plans for me. My father and his friends brought Bruce Springsteen tickets and they decided to bring their families along. I went to the show but the whole time I remember complaining of a headache. After the show I fell asleep
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I settled into the teaching profession because that is what my family members and friends advised me to do. However, while I was in the public schools for my observations I questioned if this was the right path for me. During one of my meditations I questioned what career I should go into when a small voice whispered to me saying I should go into writing. When I told my parents how I would get my degree, but would no longer continue teaching they freaked out and at first did not support my decision. My friends and family members laughed at the idea of me becoming a professional screenwriter. Then a friend suggested if I was serious about screenwriting then I should attend Robert McKee’s course. The day before I attended his course I was in a bad mood, I didn’t have a good day at student teaching, my class would not listen to me and I questioned if this was a career I wanted to do for the rest of my life and if not then what would I go into? I saw no hope for my future and questioned my existence in the world. This was until the day I walked into McKee’s class. As I walked into the course I was completely closed off, but hearing him talk about the screenwriting process, he spoke light into my dreams, making me realize that becoming a screenwriter is attainable if you follow the right steps. After I attended his class I was so motivated …show more content…
Even though I read the books and listen to motivational podcasts there's something that is missing from my life. I know you have to think positive, act as if, believe, visualize, and have a deep relationship with God. However I feel as though I am stuck. My friends are advancing in their lives and careers. Then there's me, I recently got laid off from my job and I'm scrambling to find a new one, but I know in my heart that whatever regular job I get won't compare to my dream job, which is to become a screenwriter. Although I try positive affirmations and crafting a new vision board each year I'm still stuck. How can I believe in myself when the people who are the closest to me don't even believe that I can make it? They laugh at my ideas and they don't want to hear what I say because they think I’m “too positive”, "unrealistic", or in "la la land". I want to prove to my haters, non believers, friends and family members that I can and I will make it, but how can I do that when it’s me going up against the world while I am trying to build my career, self confidence, trying to get a new job, and deal with every day life situations? I think on the outside I come off as a positive thinker, happy go lucky person, but I feel as though deep inside lies the real me which is a pessimist who is scared to believe in
Throughout my life, I’ve wanted to be many things. An astronaut, a princess, a doctor, a lawyer, and at one point in my life the president. Now that I am older and much more mature. I still haven’t decided what I wanted to be. When I first started my high school career, I was terrified. I didn’t know what I wanted to be. So I decided to try new things. I’ve been with choir ever since I was in the sixth grade, so I thought I would give it shot, and try something new. I started to take drama and art. I soon found out, that I wasn’t great at either of those things. I had stage fright and I sucked at drawing. But, I didn’t give up. I stayed with choir, drama, art, and basketball. Now that I am a senior and ready to graduate, I have found out I
The day my mom told me that theirs was a concert at the state fair arena I was so happy. We went to get dinner before the concert started and once we ate we drove all the way to the arena once we got there It was packed there was a really long line and so we waited and waited until finally we got our tickets I was so nervous to go in but I was ready. Once we got into the arena it wasn’t that full once I saw it but there was still a lot of people this person helped us find our seats. We were in the third row I was so excited to sit there because I wouldn’t have to walk very far to the stage.
JB: For me, filmmaking began with picking up a friend’s camcorder the first time and simply starting to make movies. It was one Saturday a long time ago, I think I was thirteen. From that moment on, I knew there was no other option, and aside from some part-time
Keep in mind that what's going on outside you is a result of what's going on INSIDE you. What self-limiting belief do you have about your skills and abilities? Take stock and be honest with yourself. The average person has 50,000 to 60,000 thoughts a day. When we talk to ourselves about "ourselves," much of that self-talk is negative. We are usually our harshest critic. As the saying goes, "How many times in a day do we 'should' all over ourselves with everything that we 'should' be doing?!" Always remember...strive for progress, not
As a child, I always thought that it was my assignment in life to become an attorney. At least that's what my parents said. But not me! I was always into the arts, singing; although I can't, dancing, producing mini shows, or whatever I could do to express myself creatively. Unfortunately my parents were not convinced that the arts would get me far in life, so they pushed me down the college track. Even the high school guidance counselors saw the leadership in me. Surely, she's going to college and becoming a lawyer. So I tried it. Although surrounded by the uncertainty, but these people have my best interest at heart so why not? Except when I got there, I was not passionate about it at all! There started this search of who am I and what is it
Returning to college has been a prodigious challenge. One in which I determined I would meet head on with resolution. As a fine arts student I was fortunate to find a mentor in the Paradise Valley Community College Theater Director, Andrea Robertson. Andrea perceived potential in me and encouraged pursuit my goals as a writer/director. I took the initiative to approach Andrea with the idea to write and direct my own play in the Advanced Directing course. This past fall that idea came into fruition. As a director I oversaw numerous different areas in the production of my play. These were roles filled by fellow students, allowing the opportunity to provide guidance and leadership to peers. I worked with actors, stage management, set design, prop
The book "Mindset The New Psychology of success" written by Carol S. Dweck is about how one can change his/her life if they have the right mindset. "In this book, you'll learn how to simply believe in yourself"(Dweck) you may think 'Oh I already believe in myself' but sometimes we are our own worst enemy.
It was sixth grade and my family got us tickets to see Nine Inch Nails. So the day came along and we made the long drive to St. Louis to go and see them. We got there around 3 hours early and they were people there with stands outside the arena selling Nine Inch Nails t-shirts, hats, buttons, you name it, they had it. So we sat outside the arena for the 3 whole hours and then finally they opened the door to get in and we were practically first through the doors. Right when we walked in there were even more stands selling merchandise than there were outside. So after getting popcorn, cotton candy, soda, all the snacks we would need for the concert we headed to our seats. After about 15 minutes of sitting in our seats
I started to write when I was 10 years old. It was under the recommendation of my therapist who believed that it would help me release negative emotions, and it did. Since then I have loved to write stories, journals, poems, anything that could set my imagination free. However as a writer I’ve always felt unsuccessful I have always felt that the pieces I write are never completed. Even more that as a writer I was not good enough and I shouldn’t show my writings to anyone that I shouldn't even bother to continue as a writer. These reason both motivate me and make me not want to continue but I choose to let it motivate me because I
As soon as the laughter stopped the concert began and it was a dream come true. Near the end of the concert the Foo Fighters decided to play Detroit Rock City by KISS and under pressure by queen which was funny because at the start Dave Grohl said “you ready to hear a song? Well here is ice ice baby!” but they played under pressure. As the concert finished we started to walk to the spot we were meeting my Aunt Min and I noticed some guy steal a traffic cone and run but the police caught him. I remember the exact moment we got in the car and closed our doors it started to rain quite heavily. Shortly after we arrived back at Rog and Ness’s place we decided to go to McDonalds before we took the long journey home and I had a hot chocolate and chips. The morning after the big concert I could not physically go to sports day although I would have liked to
When I was young, I was into taking photos and dealing with the camera as well as watching movies. As I began to see more movies and cameras, I got more interested in technology. Watching different movies and getting in touch with technology led me to making small films by myself. I had creative imagination
My teacher mocked me this week and I fell into a depressive state. I cried in my bed for hours, and in the shower. How can the career path that everyone saw me excel at, have my teacher tell me that I won't make a good teacher and to mock me! The next day when I went to a screenwriting course, I wasn't my typical happy go lucky self. I saw no hope or future in my life. Then I walked into Robert McKee's screenwriting course and it greaty impacted my life. Throgh Mr. McKee's seminar I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. Mr. McKee restored my life and hopes, dreams, and future plans. He did this through an indepth conversation about screenwriting. Hearing the words I was motivated to finish writing my screenplays. While I was in the
Looking back on my sophomore and junior years of high school, I had a very difference idea of how my life was going to turn out. I worked three days a week on my school’s radio station, WBMT, and played guitar during my free time. I was going to major in business and minor in communications and hopefully pursue some career in music production and management. From middle school until late high school, that was the way I was going to affect people, through music. While I had worked as a camp counselor, and had experience working with children, it just wasn’t a path that I thought I could turn into a career. As I grew up and had new experiences, I began to reevaluate my plans for myself.
Excited about facing the “impossible,” I made myself a list of all the things that my parents, family, friends, and teachers thought will make me great. After almost a decade from the time I wrote that list, I started going through my list: soccer, check; tennis, check; theatre, check; basketball, check; business, check; medical, check. Ironically, everything I started doing seemed to be impossible; I kept hitting dead ends with everything I tried on that “holy” list. I quit soccer after 2 years, basketball after 1 year, theatre after 2 months, and tennis after just 2 weeks, and I didn’t even want anything to do with medical and business. However, every time I just
For many years of my life, I felt that I wasn 't moving in a positive direction, I was constantly battling life, fighting to finish the day on a positive note. I was trying my best but couldn’t overcome the daily struggles. In school, I was always told that I should be doing better and that all I needed to do was apply myself, try harder.