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Elizabeth Monologue

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Dark Paradise Elizabeth clasps her shaking fingers together as she stares unblinkingly at the picture hung up on the opposite wall. All she feels is a crippling, bone-breaking pain; yet at the same time, she is numb. A part of Elizabeth wants to break free of this icy ocean that surrounds her drowning form, but a stronger, louder part welcomes the numbing pain; for it is all she has left of John. It’s been well over a year since he has been gone and she still wakes up at three in the morning, nearly sobbing, with the bittersweet taste of a memory with John, her John, on her tongue. She loved him, she loves him, she will always love him; that will never change and she doesn’t want it to. “Elizabeth, I love you, but you know it’s time to move …show more content…

However it was no use. A wonderful and terrible image of her dear, sweet John is painted across her eyelids. She is haunted by her beloved; never to be forgotten. He now resides in her head; guiding her and keeping her strong, telling her that everything is fine. But it’s not. It will never be fine: John is dead, never to return. No matter how many tragically beautiful dreams Elizabeth has, where she is wrapped up in John’s strong arms and he is looking down at her adoringly or they are just laughing and smiling at the pure euphoria of each other’s presence, she can never again wake up in his warm embrace or laugh at one of his jokes. As sick and twisted as it is, Elizabeth, not too long ago, existed only for her dreams. Her wonderful paradise, her terrible paradise, her dark paradise. Where she could see her oh so lovely John; the only place she could see her John. Although when she wakes up wishing she were dead, those few moments of living in beautiful, unaltered glory make it all worth it. But now she dreads sleeping. Sleeping means dreams and dreams mean waking up in tears, disappointment, and paralyzing sadness, It became all too

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