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My Journey Into Self Discovery

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If you stumbled upon this blog in hopes of finding some powerful words of wisdom, you took a wrong turn. After 41 years, I find myself with even more questions and all the wrong answers. I am not here to enlighten or educate anyone. I 'm here to talk, to share my journey into self-discovery.

So here 's an overview of my life up to now. I was born in Barstow, California to a free-spirited, free-thinking, multi-talented artist father and a breath-taking, tragic beauty of a mother. Neither one should have ever had a child, but both of the longed for the love they thought a child would give them. So, here I am.

By the time I was 3, I was living with my 16 year old aunt because my mom 's boyfriend hit me and blacked both my eyes. There were …show more content…

My new "dad" was short-tempered and mean as hell. It didn 't take long for me to experience his full blown rage up close and personal. He was short but he had the devil in him when he got mad and you never knew what he would do when that happened. He through me against walls, doors, the floor, busted my eardrum, whipped me with an extension cord until I bled, blacked my eyes...I had no idea this was abuse back then. I wasn 't a bad kid when it started, but I turned into an angry, rebellious teenager. That made conditions at home a war zone. I would runaway at least once a month, I stole money from the restaurant they owned, I stole his truck, parked it in a field and threw the keys as far as I could into some tall grass.

They divorced when I was 16. I thought everything would be perfect but I could not have been further from the truth. My mom had always taken pills but I never saw it as an addiction but after the divorce, she started drinking. A lot. I saw her become a completely different person in a matter of months. She was never the same after that. She went from one high to the next for the rest of her life. Love destroyed her. She died in 2008. I loved her more than she could have ever imagined but she was never a mother to me....she was my friend right before she died though, and that means even more to me as an adult.

My dad always kind of floated in and out of my life. He lived his life and when it was in the stars, and

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