My Life Process

When I think of mindfulness I contemplate of ones empathetic to interpret a situation. For two weeks every night before I went to bed, I wrote down three items I was grateful for. Some of the words were “Health”,” Family”,” Friends”,” Food”, and” Childhood”. This list goes on, what I grasped is whatever I did that day predisposed what I wrote down. On days I lifted I would appreciate my health, when I went away with my family I recognized how much I appreciated my family, when I was home for a day I realized how much I adored my bed. The new custom I obtained made me appreciate how indebted I am in my life to points I didn’t fathom before. This taught me to feel empathy for people who can’t say the same good things as me which gave me very good insight on to be grateful for the life I have.

I have struggled with things I didn’t know how to overcome and had to leave in the hands of God. I had to put my trust in God when my great aunt had to have emergency surgery. She is ninety years old and the doctors didn’t think she would be strong enough to recover, but she recovered faster than they would expect a heathy, young person to.

I was hurt after the event that the only person I knew that would heal me was the one that brought me where I am today…God. Everyone in my life was questioning what I was doing by reading the bible whenever I had the chance. I powered through that summer (which was a very challenging season for me) with God and putting everything I had towards Him whenever I got the chance. I gave up my friends since they were trying to get me to drink, my parents were burned out with faith (they thought I wanted to harm myself over everything and didn’t understand why I was doing what I was doing), and the only person that helped me through it all was a godly woman that is still my spiritual leader today. She was a blessing in my life during my utmost hurtful summer. Towards the end of the summer, God had my heart and I could not explain how much love I was feeling from Him through it all. He was working wonders in my life to shape me into the man that He had for me to

Have you ever had any experiences that you don’t realize are life lessons until you’re left to learn from them? They’re the kind of life experiences you wish were just bad dreams because they stress you out to the point you hate yourself for what you’ve done or put yourself through. Sometimes God presents us with difficult situations to test us and our reactions. These are also the experiences that inspire you to be a better person, and teach you that you can get through the rough patches in life perfectly fine after all. For me, life has recently presented me with some pretty recent trials, all in a matter of a few consecutive months, that have tested me. Going through an unpleasant break-up, being sent to a girls’ home not long after, and finally coming home to a sort of unfamiliar routine. That’s where I am in this process; learning from my mistakes and allowing myself to realize that these lessons and events are what God has planned for me to encounter.

It was amazing what total surrender did to turn my life around. My double life died as I became single minded for God. I could not get enough of his word, prayer, worship and fellowship with other believers. God began to lay a strong foundation of faith in me that would begin to grow and produce good works for his kingdom. Walking with God has not always been easy. I had times were I have been faithful to God and times when I have grown cold toward him. I thank God that he never gives up on me. I thank God that his mercies are new everyday. Almost two years ago, I lost my husband and my mother on the same day. I lost my father ten months later. If I not built a foundation and if I had not developed intimate relationship with God I would have never made it through the most difficult time of my life. If God had not healed me of the brokenness of my youth, I would never have believed he could heal me of these new

I have found in my life that I have come closest to my Savior when I have been going through challenging trials. The times I have suffered the most are the times I have learned and grown significantly, making me the person I am today, who is trying to become more like

I had lost a group of friends who I grew very close to seeing as they looked at me in a different aspect. "She's going to judge us" , "She's too good for us now", "I don't want to sit with someone who's going to preach to me" , these were all phrases that got passed around the tiny halls of my middle school after I had committed my life to Christ. My "social life" had digressed and people didn't want to be around me, but that's the moment I came to a realization. I was looking for love somewhere there wasn't any, I had put my foot in a path that was dry on appreciation where I had thought there was plenty, and the heartbreak I had taken from the loss of three great friends had got healed by one awesome Father. There are some worldy heartbreaks when accepting Christ, but they become heavenly appreciations after you realize why the Lord has detached you from

Stay upbeat, believing in yourself with the grace of God and the blessing of the Holy Spirit. Hold on to your hope and faith. Knowing God knew the problem I’d face long before I got here. He has already given me all the strength, talent and skills I need to face it. He knows the solution and outcome.

Through this journey I lost everything, except my faith in The Lord. It was at this time, The

The word of God has brought me through some of the most difficult times in my life. Almost three years ago now, my family suffered a great loss. It really affected me. There was a point in time when I let the pain and guilt of that tragedy eat me up. God brought me out of that dark place I was in and He made my faith stronger. God revealed to me that He has a greater plan. Today, looking back I see how God used that tragedy to help grow my faith in the midst of the hurt. Now I can talk to and be there for people who go through the same thing. Where we are in life, when we are in God’s will, is exactly where we need to be!

out all the heartaches and storms i have been through.I still standing on the LORD

However, when I was seventeen, I went through a serious depression that lasted about a year and a half. During this time in my life, I was led astray and lost my hope in God. I truly hated Him for what He had put me through at that point in life and I wished that I had grown up not knowing or believing in Him. My mom sent me to multiple different counselors who tried to help me get out of the deep hole that I had put myself into. No one seemed to be helping me and the longer I was stuck in this depression, the farther away from God I became. Life without God was extremely difficult, people make it seem so fun and exciting to live against God’s will, however, coming from a person who has lived on both sides of the fence, it was awful. I never was happy, I could only focus on myself and never on other people, and when I did sin, I never felt fulfilled, just regret. It was not until I got to college that I truly found God again. I remembered why I had worshiped Him since I was four and why I needed to follow

As emotionless situations were called for, this was not the time to give the cold shoulder. This was not a time to almost do who knows what. This was not a time to run from everything. He had to face this eventually, Rowan had said that when they first met. He was told he couldn't run forever and eventually things just catch up. His friends, Theresa, his mom, and being caught with her. It was all a flash back to the past and a foreshadow of what was to come. [i]Life always catches up[/i] There was no denying that. In that thinking time, he was thinking, but not processing.

My faith journey has been challenged throughout my life. I have had many ups and downs, and many times when I questioned my faith. Although those times were rough, I found comfort in God and knowing that He is always there for me. One of my favorite quotes is “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” Philippians 4:13. This quote got me through tough times when my faith was shaking.

As a very small child I don’t remember too much, but the things that I do remember were seen through a child’s eyes that has made me the person that I am today and I will always have those memory’s with me until my last breath on this earth. In this essay I intend to show how my childhood and adult life to this point has influenced my life, my journey. By utilizing the adult development theories from this class I also intend on showing how they relate to my Life experiences and where I am today as an Adult student.