Growing up I think I always knew my brain was different than most of the students in my class. I have always had a difficult time doing the most basic mathematical problem. While most of the children in my class could solve the simple problem such as five divide by four in their heads in a matter of seconds, for me it would take much longer. I remember a time in the 5th grade we were all in a group and each group had a set of problems that had to be solved. All three members of my group had decided that it would be best if all I did was write what they told me to write so I would not slow them down. “You’re too slow to do this with us” one of them would say every time I would offer to help. At the time I did not know why I could not understand a basic problem, or why it seems that every time I looked at a number it would turn it to a letter right before my eyes. I just always assumed what my classmates would say about me where true and I was for lack of better terms, too stupid to do the math. It was not until my sophomore year of high school that I learned the reason for my hard time was my learning disability called Dyscalculia. Where it not for that one year in my high school education and one teacher that motivated me I do not believe I would be where I am today. Today I want to share with you all how I learned not only to push accept myself, but hope to do the same for other children. To understand my brain you must first know what my disability is. To put it in simple teams Dyscalculia or as I call it math dyslexia, basically means that I have hard time learning or understanding any form of math or anything involving numbers. I did not know that was the reason I could not do math without a problem, or basic skills such as counting money and reading a non-digital clock was because of that. Once my teachers would see my history with math they would always recommend that I take the tutorial classes, meaning I would have a less challenging classes then the rest of my classmates. At first I was ok with the idea of not having to do the same math as the rest of the students in my grade; however one of my teachers Mrs. Carol Williams, thought I was not reaching my full potential. I remember her asking me
I could never get it right and I always got screamed at for it. I used to take tests read the passage and the go to the questions and read the questions wrong and mark the wrong answer. Then my mom would be mad at me and we would try to fix it at home and she would get so frustrated because I just could not do it. I just could not interpret words correctly. At times I used to think that if I acted like and walked like and ate what all the “smart kids” ate then I would become smart
After all, math was one of my best subjects. I had never really had an experience where I just couldn't understand the concept of a math problem, of how it was solved and why. Our teachers has warned us back in elementary school, that one day we would hit an invisible wall and not ease through classes. That one day we would struggle with understanding a problem, a concept or even a subject. I had never believed them, thinking this would never happen to me, that I could somehow avoid this wall of confusion and just walk right through. But there I was, utterly confused and frustrated at a simple problem that everyone else could solve. Why was I not seeing it? Why couldn't I understand the solution? I asked myself. For the first time in my life I really struggled to get an A in a class. I had my sister tutor me almost every day, preparing for a quiz and then the next, and the next. I came in to my teacher for lunch and he helped me step by step. I studied for tests, and worked hard. And my work payed off. I got a high A in the course, and a lot of experience from it. It taught me how to work hard for something, to earn a good grade when you deserve it, and it gave me the skills I needed to get As in the high school classes I am taking this
“Once we accept our limits, we go beyond them.” was a quote my mom said before my first day of high school. My mom use to tell me that every morning before I started my day. Unlike others, my brain works in a different way. Everyday, I struggle with reading numbers, writing papers, even spelling basic words. Not everything comes natural to me. It all began in second grade when my teacher noticed I was not like everyone else. The feeling of being talked down to in front of your peers was mortifying. For awhile, I never understood why I was treated different from the rest of the class. Once I figured out that I had a learning disability and my brain was not at the level of where it should be, I began to relinquish. From then on
Watson and Gable (2012) suggests that further studies be designed to help unravel the complexities of mathematics learning disabilities (MLD). Current ways of testing contain flawed measurement, multiply learning disabilities, an a agreement of a definition of MLD. They also suggest that earlier diagnosis in early grade school would help narrow the educational gap. But that earlier intervention would also help. Disadvantage children are more likely to struggle in school. There is a great need for research based on high schools, the main focus of the mathematics literature is based on elementary schools and show that there is still approximately the same educational gap when the student is 18 as their was at 6. Schmidt and Burroughs (2015) said that one of the key factors is the inequality of all students being exposed to the math; therefore have an unequal opportunity to learn the same math as the
The first time I realized I was different was in Kindergarten. All the students were so excited to start reading, and pronouncing words. Myself on the other hand, did not share this excitement. Instead I dreaded it. I struggled to pronounce the words, to recognize the words, and to comprehend the words. This caused frustration and a hatred for going to school. It was not until I transferred to Roundtown in second grade that I got the help I needed. They had diagnosed me with dyslexia, a learning set back that will shape me into I am today.
It was much more difficult accepting myself when others expected so much from me. My parents see me as their golden child, the one who becomes a doctor, lawyer, or something of that nature. I was the child that was supposed to have straight As and
As a child I always struggled in school. My peers all learned at a faster rate and understood new material better than me. They could read better than me and do math faster than me. It wasn’t until I reached 4th grade that I was tested and diagnosed with dyslexia. Once I knew this I was able to begin turning my education around.
I practically taught my 9th grade algebra class. Then came sophomore year and well, that's when math started to become hard. My A’s quickly turned into B’s and C’s, and on occasion some D’s. That was a very drastic change for me. The difficulty had been increased and I gave up because the math became harder. I was unsuccessful. I was seeking constant validation and when it wasn't received I fell deeper and deeper into my fixed mindset. I depended solely on my basic qualities, and when that didn't amount to what I wanted, I told myself that I was dumbest one in the class and that I was horrible at math. I dreaded having to go to math class. After all the time and all the effort I had put into the class I would still receive failing grades. Being closed minded really held me back. If only I treated it the way I did with
A transcript can show where someone is headed in life. The high school education I have received so far has shaped me into the person I am and has steered me into the direction I want to go in. Every choice I have made, about my education, has been much considered and has made changes to the course I am following to better fit the future I am aiming for. Over time, much has changed in my life; my interest, point of views, and the way I approach situations. My transcript is a reflection of these changes. A lot can be told about my education and how it has affected me by looking at my transcript. The person I am that is reflected on my transcript has been decided by strengths and weaknesses of mine, impressions that have been left, and what I have chosen to participate in.
“Dyscalculic learners may have difficulty understanding simple number concepts, lack an intuitive grasp of numbers, and may have problems learning number facts and procedures…Even if they produce a correct answer or use a correct method, they may do so hesitantly and without confidence. There is a high co-morbidity rate for children with developmental dyscalculia and dyslexia. Between 60% and 100% of dyslexics have difficulty with certain aspects of mathematics” (Dyslexia and Mathematics). Children who lack mathematical fluency will struggle to comprehend the concepts they encounter as they advance to more complex math courses. Teaching problem solving strategies and helping students develop mathematical fluency are techniques that will enhance their academic performance. Additionally, students with learning disabilities, such as dyslexia and dyscalculia, often experience anxiety when completing math questions. To help alleviate this issue, teachers should establish relationships with the students and be familiar with
As a student I write to you requesting additional funding to complete my course work at UMass Amherst. Over the last year of schoolwork I have begun to experience new health related hardships which have progressively reduced the quality and quantity of work I am capable to do for long periods of time. During the course of the last fall I had to file a case in housing court in November 2017, after the previous three months of experiencing and exposed to over 7 housing code violations including disturbance of the peace and rodent infestation. In addition to these violations I experienced level of unwanted sexual harassment and non-mutual sex parties in the house I was renting. As a result of these unhospitable accommodations my health continues
Dyslexia is my disability especially when it comes to writing an essay or reading out loud in a class where I'm afraid that I will pronounce the wrong words and will fall under the eyes of judgement. As a result my dyslexia I have become very creative on how to achieve normal day tasks, for example if I have to write an essay I usually use the speak-to-text feature on my computer to get my thoughts out without having to fear that I won't be able to write correctly. Therefore I never
When I was little I was bad in math. In middle school, my grades in math were sixty and below. At that point, my dad who was a math teacher noticed that I was failing, and having troubles with this class. After my dad realized that, he started to practice with me every day after his work, and that happened during the next couple of years until I finished high school. After all that time that I practiced, when I took Algebra in college, math was not difficult for me. Math became in the easiest class that I have taken in college. After years of practice and effort I pass Math in college with A. I did not born with the ability of math, but I developed and now I can say that is my favorite class. Based on my experience, I could prove the theory that with growth mindset you can success in anything you
As I grew up and went to middle school, things became different for me. The work became more difficult, so the teacher thought it would be best for me to get in a resource class and they called it "extra help.” That is when I started to understand that I had a learning disability and I started to realize that I was different in learning from my class mates. They also became aware of my learning disability because of the teacher coming to get me to go to the resource class.
Since taking my first few educational courses in education, I have realized that my philosophy on education changes as I learning more about the profession I have entered. Every time I think I have come to a final belief statement, I learn something new about teaching and sometimes the things I learn causes me to alter my philosophy. Therefore, I will share with you what I believe about teaching and what I’ve learned at this point.