My Reflection On My Life

Let me add here how very faithful God was to me. If I had known what the future held, I would not have been able to go forward. In God’s grace and infinite wisdom, He protected me and only allowed me to have enough information to continue to go forward.

In recent years, God has become a very important part of my life. I am determined to learn more about God and look forward to seeing what he has in store for me and my family. At one time God was not a big part of my life, I did not attend church regularly or feel close to him. I have always believed in God and Jesus Christ as our savior, but did not actively seek a closer relationship with him. I feel that much of that changed when I accepted my current job in a church based preschool program. After taking the position in the preschool, I was then offered a position in the church’s nursery on Sunday mornings. I accepted this position also and my son and I started attending Church every Sunday. In the time since, my husband, myself, and our children have all joined the Church, been baptized, and become very active in our Church. I feel that this was God’s plan for us all along. I feel that God guides our decisions each and everyday, and I now use prayer to seek his guidance for our lives.

I remember crying and asking the Lord “why me”! Things never seemed normal or should I say things never seemed right. Growing up in a dysfunctional family you kind of start thinking that life sucks and you will never get a chance at being anything. Then you start believing thatyour not smart. Your nothing and then it happens you give up. I did just that. I dropped out of high school. That’s when my life took a turn for the worse. One day I just started feeling that this isn’t what the Lord wants for me. So I started seeking him. I no longer wanted to give up. Instead I wanted to fight and get my life back. I did just that. I went back to school and got my GED. Later I kept my promise to the Lord and went to college. I found out in college I had a passion for nursing. I also found out I’m pretty smart. I can’t get enough of school. All I want to do is learn. Coming from where I came from I would not take anything for granted. If you give me this opportunity to be apart of your school I will give it my all. I promise your staff will not be disappointed. Sincerely;Ledroin

The book of Proverbs states “In their heart humans plan their course, but the Lord directs their steps.” (Proverbs 16:9) For a lot of us, we notice the first part, and leave out the ending. Any typical girl plans her wedding at age five, designs her dream house before she can draw, and decides to chase after a career without knowing what degree is needed. We hear fairytales and bedtime stories that make us want to dream bigger and expect more. Most of the time, our “happily ever after” isn’t that we pictured. Like most stubborn females, I thought I could determine what was best for my life. But little did I know, God’s plans are far greater than what I could ever imagine.

“We all long to be in the flourishing section, but we stay in the safe section”(Mr. Mustard.) I want to be able to stand up for what is right no matter who it is for or when it is. “ For I know the plans I have for you, Declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future(Bible Gateway.) This is has helped through this year because it has helped me to know that I am the temple of God and I am the body of Christ. I know that my plans and God’s plans are different. I learned that through this year. I always wanted to make my own plans like I will study this or I want to do this. But it I have found out that it doesn't work that way. I know I have to believe in him and he will show me the way. “Also tht I am the body of Christ, when God looks down onto this earth, He will look down on us and see the image of Christ in us”(Pastor Matt.) That just blew my mind, I don’t know why, but it did. That is why I want to grow more in my faith and my action because we all are made in Christ image, and we should fulfill

Although it was hard, I didn’t hesitate to look to my Heavenly Father for help. I knew He had given me this trial for reason, but I didn’t know why. I was blessed with wonderful friends and family, and I was satisfied with the way my life was, but suddenly I struggled to feel happy. I spent many nights on my knees crying and praying for help. I asked God to help me feel happy again, wondering how He would respond. I waited for an answer, but I felt like I wasn’t receiving one. It took me a few months after the school year had started to realize that He had answered my pleas for help since the first day of school began.

Ultimately, only God knows what will fulfill His purpose for your life and, as a result, will give you the greatest fulfillment. If you really want God’s best, pray for His perfect will. “I desire to do your will, O my God; your law is within my heart.” (Psalm 40:8) Line Up Your Self-Image with God’s Image of You Your self-image has been shaped predominantly by the messages you received and internalized from others, from your experiences, and from your own self-talk. When you were a child, you did not have control over those in authority over you, but that is no longer the case.

This past school year , I was an energetic student excited about pursing a career in engineer. The first semester went was not too bad. I meant I still wanted to become an engineer. The second semester came around , things started to become more difficult than I thought. May it was the combination of two Calculus classes and two required engineer classes. I really struggle with Structural Statics and my CAD class. I never felt so defeated in my academic affairs because I had attended all the office hours my professor had. I was disgusted and shamed at the results I was receiving even though I had all the help from my professor and stayed up trying to figure out the assignment. Like Moorer, I prayed to God daily to help me complete my daily engineer assignments because I was failing hard in my assignments, not to talk about my quizzes and exam for Static class. To cut long story short, I believe the reason why I was experiencing such hardship was the fact that I had based my faith in constantly asking God when I realized that I was not performing to the standard I am used to. I realized that I was not being true to myself and that I was not actually pursuing a career that my heart had chosen. The reason why I had failed in engineer and was unhappy that I had convince myself that engineering would be great because I was told I possessed certain skills that would make a great engineer. Through my triumph as a first year engineer student , I become aware of God’s message to me. This message consist of me pursing a career that I would be happy with and not what people wanted me to be. Ever since that realization , my heart did not rest until I had finally changed my major . My heart was telling me try out social work. This following school year , I will be pursuing a career in social work . I am now happy mentally and spiritually that I will be trying something that

I have gone though many events that have helped form my present and will form my future. Alaska and my life their being the first even. The next being the move from Alaska to Indiana. Moving from the large public school to the small Christian school in my town. Meeting Zac Hess, Drew Nevien, and Katlyn Black. I was taught what love is by two special girls with the same name. I chose Grace College because of my two major’s, biblical studies and sports ministries which Grace offers. I have changed so much since I started here at Grace nearly two months ago. I have developed many relationships with roommates, hall mates, with Christ, and still waiting on a relationship with a special girl. All of these have played a role in forming me into the man I am today, and the one I will become. This has helped me to refine what my life calling is. I believe that my calling is to be a missionary for Christ in China and many other places that God calls me to. The future might be a scary thing, but I will not fair because I can do my part to form it for Christ. However no matter what happens it does not matter because my God is sovereign and his will will be done in me. So I do not need to worry about what my calling is or what future holds because I know who holds

Throughout my entire life, I always strived to do what God has planned for me, even if it means still searching for what I have to do in the following years. I feel my entire life and experiences that accompanied it along the way have guided me towards the direction I am headed towards to serve God to the best of my abilities. The analysis of these experiences has given me the insight into what I can exactly take away from these experiences and what God calls me to do to serve the world and others resulting from this process of introspection. I have learned through myself, that God is extremely active in everything I am involved in. He made me strong enough to endure the experiences I needed to get to my current point in life. I recognize God's sacrifice for us to

Beginning the writing process, I established for myself a mental roadmap. I asked myself what I was trying to say, and what the goal or intent of the writing would be. Was I attempting to persuade my readers, or to be didactic instead? I considered the "how" part of the equation later, and honed each sentence word for word. The how part of the writing process was relatively simple compared to the question of what to say, and why. I had to imbue the paper with social commentary, for there was much to say about these readings.

One's dream and aspirations to supersede in life must be stronger and greater than limitations set forth by others. The experience that were bestowed to me during my short life has elevated me to the woman I am today. Please walk with me as I give you the opportunity to see the world from my eyes:

“Find your calling! Your mission! The one thing God has ordained for you to do for the rest of your life!” These were some of the words that I heard being preached to kids my age since I started going to youth group in 7th grade. I heard these words, and I was excited. I was excited, but also nervous, and scared, but hopeful at the same time: hopeful that one day I would find my calling for my life. I would wonder my thoughts, thinking, what is my calling going to be? And where is it going to take me? Am I going to be called to be a Pastor at a church? Is the church going to be small? Will it be huge? Will it be far away? Or will I be called to be a missionary? Will I be called to go preach the gospel to thousands of civilians in East Africa? Or will I just be called to be a one on one counselor? Whatever it was, I couldn’t wait for God to tell me what it was. A year or two went by, and people all around me were receiving their calling. My sister was called into Worship ministry, and my older brother was called to be a youth pastor. My friends were being called to be missionaries, doctors, counselors, pastors, and all other sorts of things. And there I was, still waiting to receive my calling. I thought, maybe I’m just not ready for it: Maybe God’s timing hasn’t come yet.

Today I reflected on my life and my ambitions and dreams. I also reflected on how I came to be where I am in my life. I can honestly say I like my job and the direction my life is going, finally. I have a wonderful wife that I know is the reason I am where I am today. I can take no credit for my job or even the education I am getting because she encouraged me to go back to school and continue my education or I would not have. These thoughts make me feel emancipated when I admit them because it is often hard for me to admit that my wife is the one who made me what I am and not myself. The decisions I made in my youth I know are a product of my own bad judgment and I cannot place that blame on anyone but myself. My children are grown, and we are not close in our relationship. I can only blame myself for my selfish attitude when they were young. I blame myself not only for not always being accessible to my children but because I chose to put my career as a detective before my children. This was no one else’s decision but my own and I have paid for these choices in many ways over the span of my life.

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