I walked into the school. My parents were right behind me, and I tried to keep my breathing at a normal pace. Inhale, exhale. Inhale, exhale. I can do this. I told myself. It was the day of the audition — my audition — for the Regional Arts Program, more specifically the visual arts section. I didn’t think I’d even make it to the front door of the school, and yet here I was.
I think back to grade seven, when I lugged around a sketchbook, drawing during class. For any and every art project, (or even any project with a ‘visual component’) I’d just put all my effort into making it look as visually aesthetic as my learning hands could make it look. My grade seven English teacher took note of this, and one day, half way through the school year, he mentioned Cawthra Park to me. An arts school. The arts school. We were in the middle school library, and he pulled me aside, plopped down on the couch, and began telling me about this high school that I could audition for next year.
My initial reaction was, “Woah! That’s so cool!” and “You can do art every day?”. I’m guessing he could tell by my face that I was in absolute awe because he expressed that I had the talent to get in. And it struck me just then that I had to audition, and that I had no confidence whatsoever in my own work. The kids who try for this stuff probably started going to art lessons when they were four. No, probably at two. I didn’t have any experience unless you count doodling, and projects for school. I’d be up
The first class I took part in was weaving and fibers, and similar to that of playing an instrument, art influenced my life. Weaving and fibers opened up a whole new world I had never experienced; my grandfather built me my own loom, and my whole family became interested in my art projects. After taking my first art class I chose to participate in many more: arts & crafts (twice), ceramics, and stained glass. Art opened up many opportunities for me both socially and intellectually. I participated in art competitions including the contest for the Erie Times News 100th year anniversary (my school placed second) and the Vans Custom Culture contest. I collaborated and built friendships with diverse groups of individuals, worked on group projects (such as stained glass windows), and a plethora of independent study projects (macrame hangings, dream catcher’s, gnome houses…). Through the arts both musical and visual I experienced unimaginable opportunities and experiences that allowed both self-expression and
It was my freshman year of high school when I took Drawing A; I quickly learned that I had a skill that I had previously ignored and began embracing it. Sophomore year, though, was when I truly started using my art. It was during this year that I received a 4 on my AP-Studio Art portfolio, and won four awards at Scholastic Art and Writing in photography. Art gave me a feeling of accomplishment that I didn’t usually get in the rest of my academics, so I always tried my
After a few months passed I discovered an amazing opportunity, an internship with Walt Disney called the Disney College Program. I was excited. I didn’t think I would have been given the opportunity, and although I loved art school, I faced the struggle most teens my age had “ did I make the right choice”. Since I was uncertain
I have very little confidence in singing and performing in front of people, so when I tried out for the talent show at Blue Lake Fine Arts Camp, I legitimately
I graduated from Hilliard Darby High School this past spring. My love for art began very young with my father who always made sure to encourage my creativity. I remember making coil pots with him during the summer and then painting them. In the ninth grade I took painting which I immediately became attached too. For the past four years I have continued to expand my abilities and strengthen skills with the help of my teacher Mrs. Kulick-Brown. From there I have completed several commissioned pieces for teachers and their families. Painting has taught me a lot about color and composition. During high school I also was involved in ceramics where I competed in the annual ‘Feats of Clay” competition. I love the focus and serenity I experience
For adults, it was seen as ‘childish’ and ‘silly’ and I was rarely encouraged. Even my parents thought my penchant for art was unnecessary and insisted I was wasting my time. In those moments, I felt worthless, however, those feelings of defeat only fueled the flame inside of me to strive to improve and one day, prove that my art and I were not valueless.
I gracefully accepted the challenge brought on by my peers. It was no secret that I was the best artist in my high school due to my countless awards from art shows and endless recognitions but I still lacked the confidence to put my ideas out there. My artistic eye wouldn't get me anywhere in life; I thought it was essentially a useless talent as the world needs more than beautiful portraits and artsy doodles.
Standing outside the door I felt a sense of relief, but I also felt like a failure. I had spent hours preparing for this audition only to fail in a matter of seconds. When the final callbacks were posted and my name was not listed I was reminded yet again of my failure. However, I knew that this was not a true indication of my musical talent. I was accepted in my district band and that is what I am still proud of
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”When I was a kid, I went to an International Fine Arts Magnet School so I was introduced to art through that. I did my first mural when I was in 4th grade and I just really remembered it and it influenced me a lot,” McLain said.
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I was not the best at first. Back in the fourth grade, I constantly drew Tuscan Villas and the Titanic, a symptom of my Aspergers. But like all of my obsessions, I found something better. Now in the first days of my Freshman year, I switched from a Study hall to Art I. My father was an artist in his youth, and he gave me some of his old sets and papers so I could “get ahead of the class.” Some of my first pieces were messy
I had to change the way I viewed the audition. Rather than viewing it as a chore, or something that all of my friends did, I approached it as an intriguing challenge. I decided I would do it for myself. I would practice and audition in order to make myself and the three judges listening to me, happy. I avoided immersing myself into my anxiety, and was surprisingly relaxed by the time I reached the entrance of the building. Even as I walked into the warm-up room, the air thick with tension and fear, I managed to calm down and warm up properly, facing the wall away from everyone else. My responsibility as a musician was to create beautiful music, and display my love for my instrument. I focused on making the piece sound beautiful and pleasant to the ears, rather than displaying the technique and style of the
I had always been fascinated by art, but it was a distant fascination that lent itself more towards observation than actual creation. The winter before I turned fourteen, my eighth grade art class held a contest to create a design for the school district’s Christmas card. Having been sick for three days, I did not hear of the contest until the day it ended. Finding a forgotten sketch I had done of a Christmas bell, I decided that no harm could come from entering it. To my complete and utter stupefaction, I won. The indescribable feeling of pride, accomplishment, and joy that I felt made me realize how much I loved art, and that I might possibly be good at it. Dedicating myself to my newfound passion, I convinced my parents to enroll
Throughout these years I had pursued art as an interest outside of my professional ambitions. Although I knew I had passion for the subject, I was convinced that I had to compromise my creativity in order to have a successful career. It was only in the midst of my crisis, when my favorite teacher decided to pursue opportunities outside of the school, that I realized that I shouldn’t have to play by anyone else’s rule book, especially not my district’s.