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Personal Narrative Essay : Personal Experience In My Life

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Wake Up

Well, here I am… It’s taken me six years to get to this point since I, still a school student, emailed Harvard a naïve question: How do I get accepted?

I am 24 now. I spent most of my life in a tiny Russian village ravaged by the poverty and unemployment following the collapse of the Soviet Union. The people around me still preserved somewhat Soviet kind of mindset and values. There was an important detail, however: the emerging TV industry of the new Russia made the blue screens overflow with western programs, movies, and music. The reality of every day life was in stark contrast with what I, as a kid, saw in the magic box: a beautiful world of well-being, happiness, and accomplished people. This escape was one of the subconscious forces that made me feel I was going to have a very different destiny compared to everyone I knew at the time.

Fortunately, I have always been very curious about the world. I read a lot. Watched a lot. Studied a lot. The newly acquired knowledge had a remarkable property – it made my eyes open. I grew consistently discontent and anxious when I came to realize that the interests and value system that I had formed during my school years conflicted heavily with that of the people around me. This, and being gay in the Russian countryside (the challenges of it wouldn’t fit on the Procrustean bed of a 650-word essay) further stimulated my desire to start a new life and enroll in a college in Rostov, a big city. My mother, however, thought that I needed to “take off those rose-tinted glasses and find a job”.

Yet I did as I pleased: I moved to Rostov, enrolled in journalism classes, and worked as a server to sustain a living. I chose journalism because I believed I could make a difference in my country. This illusion was quickly destroyed when I became a member of a federal electoral commission during the parliamentary and president elections of 2012 and 2013. What I saw during the elections and afterwords lead me to the conclusion that free journalism had died in the post-2013 Russia. The degree of official obscurantism, the descriminatory anti-LGBT laws, and the social climate started appearring more and more menacing. I had to be pragmatic, so I fled to the US as a refugee.

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