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They say that cold is a subjective term to describe the feeling of the absence of heat, and that without light, there is only darkness. One can only exist with the existence of the other, and in spite of it. She could be compared to the times that this rule was ignored, when the cool day was filled with kinetic energy and the pitch-black room was spilling over with the brightest light anyone had ever seen. This is not to be confused to mean that she was full of light and warmth, but rather that she had a way of encompassing both the dark and the light, while having no ties to either side. In this way, she liked to imagine that she was different, and maybe even superior, compared to others because of her wide ranging understanding of every perspective. …show more content…

Her mind was submerged in endless thought, marinating in contradiction and second guesses. It was only mid-afternoon and already she was exhausted of all of the self-doubt she was feeling, needing two hands to count the existential crises she had experienced. More than ever, she desired to be understood in a way that she never had been before. All throughout her life, she tried her best to believe that love was the predominate force in the universe and that humans were so magical for being able to feel emotion at all. As she grew older and learned more in her classes, her original policies were challenged with scientific reasoning and logic. Looking at simple facts, there was practicality in blaming biological processes for excitement, sadness, or elation, but she had always been certain that there was some deeper meaning to mankind and life itself; too many instances and objects were too impeccably beautiful to be made by these senseless laws governing all matter. Love and free will had to exist and be partly …show more content…

The true way to get past this was through accepting the ambiguity of life. Not every problem needs a resolution, and no one person could expect himself or herself to be totally aware of all of the mysteries. This realization was one that no one else could present to her, an epiphany that was entirely self made. With this acceptance came waves of justified narcissism, and she felt at peace with herself and the Earth. Every fault she found in herself may not have been smoothed out at this time, but she knew that this first small step was critical to her overall

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