Personal Narrative: Forgiveness

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I don't have anything to say really, I can't bring myself to forgive either you guys or me. I'm overreacting, I know that, you know that, but I have this kind of feeling that I shouldn't quite forgive any of us yet. But, in order for me to get to that point, we need to have a discussion in this group chat, preferably all at the same time, but separate times can work if needed. This sounds weird to me, like you're all crawling and begging for mercy in front of a king, like my forgiveness is valuable and an earned thing and it's not. It should not be an endeavor. Most of this is blame on me, I'm stubborn, like really obstinate. I kind of feel like we're drifting apart. And by that I mean, I'm veering away from the 4 of you as a group. I mean, I'm not even supposed to be …show more content…

If I wanted loneliness I would have never tried in the first place. I don't know what I'm feeling, I just know that it's there and it's bad, but will go away. It's funny though, everyone is going through something but why am I selfishly complaining. I don't understand. I'm not an innocent person, please don't think otherwise. I don't mean that in the way you're thinking. I'm not a small furry bunny that has to be protected or provided for. I'm being dramatic, over reactive, even though I try to be diplomatic and I try to fair. But I can't take it anymore, I hate every aspect of myself, whether or not you see it, and this isn't helping. I don't know, I remember on the Alabama trip, I cried late at night, and I remember you, Lucy and Erin, being awake and just sitting there in dark. I remember none of you saying anything. It felt like you didn't cares. And maybe you didn't. I can't trust something like that. Erin, you remind me often that I'm privileged and do just have faith or whatever. How is that supposed to make me feel better? Why do you make me feel like I'm terrible being so mentally dismantled that I hurt myself? Why do you make me feel like any negative emotion I've ever had isn't

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