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Personal Narrative: Life Alive

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Tim sat on my bed with just his boxers on later that night. His chest looked delicate, pale and his collarbone thicker than usual. “You're not doing this vegetarian thing for me, right?” “What?” “Your family seems appalled. Like this is something so far from who you are.” I pulled down my jeans and looked at my legs. I could see the tiny scars from the stretch marks on the insides of my thighs—white from the summer sun but still there. It was strange, I never noticed them or cared that they were there before but I kept thinking about losing more weight. I may look like a real vegetarian then and those scars may sink into my flesh and disappear forever. I imagined what that would allow me. More confidence. …show more content…

After we officially broke up, I sat in Life Alive almost every weekend waiting for Tim or one of his friends to spot me. They'd see me with my face deep in The Swami bowl. Steamed kale stuck in my teeth. Quinoa on my face. A mason jar of green liquid and floating cucumbers sitting beside my meal. No one ever came though and it was in the bathroom at Life Alive on one of those Saturdays that I stared into the mirror and studied my face. My cheeks looked suctioned into my tongue and my cheekbones long, thick lines. I was too pale, almost transparent. That was due to a lack of protein my mother had warned when I saw her a few weeks prior. I didn’t have Tim that time to grip my hand when I was ruthlessly questioned by the meat lovers. I was drawing on myself with a magic marker but the color wouldn't stay. The thought is what made me walk out and head to The Abby. At the bar, I sat and ordered The Crunchy Monkey. I tensed, waiting for someone to ask what the hell I was doing, but fifteen silent minutes later the bartender placed the burger in front of me. I picked it up, squeezed the bun and watched grease slide down my fingers. I closed my eyes and felt like a lonely wolf sinking his teeth into dinner after being abandoned by his

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