Personal Reflection

On 08/20/2017 at 1002 hours FTO Wheeler #4361 and I responded to St. Luke’s Hospital emergency room entrance, on 3555 Cesar Chavez St., regarding a women in a hospital gown trying to break the caller’s vehicle window with a brick. Officer Wheeler and I were in full police uniform driving a marked patrol unit when we responded.

This reflection will discuss personal diffidence and how it has influenced my academic studies, including my practice within placement settings. Gibbs reflective cycle (Gibbs, 1998) has been utilised as it illustrates a clear structure for the process of reflection. To conclude this reflection will draw together the themes which have emerged and highlight a clear action for future learning that will be used in order to enhance my future practice.

NCSSM Residential and Online students must have a high level of maturity, whether living away from home or working daily without teachers or supervision. Please help us understand why you are mature enough to manage your own deadlines, schedule and academic interest.

When I arrived at the agency, the room was crowded and many people were waiting for their turned to be served at one of the several tables. The person that I interviewed for this assignment was Emily Hampshire, the coordinator of one of a program called 180. Emily has been with the agency for over a year and is currently the coordinator of the agency’s newest program. This program is a gang prevention and intervention program and was created for the local at-risk youth in an effort to prevent gang related crimes and help youth “change their life around”, as Emily mentioned. This program was created in collaboration with the local Police Department and the Mount Diablo Unified School District and in

Emotional distress, at that moment, far exceeded the past physical pain which I had endured, where, as my body fought for survival, my mind yearned for death. Bound by judgemental onlooking eyes, I stood in the grounds of my school, where they consequently studied me for a sign of vulnerability; begging for me to collapse into my self-fabricated darkness. Like a spineless criminal, I slumped, trembling irrepressibly in the middle of the secluded balcony, where I implored myself to “stop” as I yet again had a crippling anxiety attack which incarcerated my whole body. It was punishing enough to wake up in the mornings, though faced with the immobilizing guilt that my therapist had contacted my parents concerning my suicidal ideation, evaporated my self-esteem. Tears filled my eyes like an overflowing river and cascaded down my face, though freezing in the silence. Proceeding to coerce myself repetitively to “stop it”, as I repulsed that mental illness was the corruptive reality of my life, I cowered as the flashbacks uncontrollably replayed in my mind. I recollected the words that any mother would dread to divulge to their child; that “sometimes I think that it would be better that you were gone, because then, you wouldn’t have to feel this pain”, contradicting this by expressing to me that “I know it’s selfish, but you can’t leave me”.

“Contributes to team goals in and out of meetings” –I rate my performance in this area with a “1”. Although I complete all the assigned tasks on time, I still need to work on advancing the team’s progress by “articulating merits of alternative ideas or proposals.” When working with team, I often feel pressured to deliver my suggestions and ideas because I am afraid that mine is impractical and not substantial compared to others’. In addition, in most cases, my ideas overlap with another team member’s, which further discourages me from sharing mine. From now to the end of this semester, I strive to contribute more of my ideas to the group. I will overcome my fear of expressing my thoughts and new suggestions by actively participating in weekly group discussions. I usually speak once or twice during discussions, but I will aim for a higher frequency and quality in my input. For example, not only I will offer my solutions to the group, but also I will ask questions about and express my thoughts on others’ solutions. Regarding meeting the assignments’ deadlines and producing quality work, I perform very well in that area. However, I must improve in assisting other team members to complete their assignments with “similar level of excellence.” I will use GroupMe to communicate with my team members regarding their progress on the assignments. I may check up on them once in the middle of the week and once near the deadline to make sure that every team member stays on track.

My summer has been amazing! I came home from GHP two days ago, where I had some of the best weeks of my life. We talked about it so much beforehand, I thought you might want to hear how it went. GHP is a learning environment like no place else. I had the opportunity to meet so many welcoming people (my hallmates, classmates, RA, and teachers) who were so similar to me in character, but also brought a wealth of different experiences. I learned so much academically, but mostly about myself while in Rome.

As I was reading this book, I kept having awe moments because I have either seen the material covered in real time or have thought about it. Out of the five career strategy components, the two that stood out for me were extending experiences and networking/connecting. Reflecting on my educational and professional career, these two themes have been the most relevant.

The central focus of my lesson was comprehension. I wanted the student to draw on their inferences to better understand the story. My lessons have built on one another because I have focused on different areas and made them more challenging. I first started the lessons with decoding, once the student mastered that I moved onto blending and finally comprehending. Each lesson up to this point has focused on what the student has learned from each tutoring session and building upon those areas to better understand the text by strengthening her fluency. I know that the student does not enjoy reading, therefore I make lesson plans that I believe she will enjoy by using subjects, text, and fun worksheets to engage her learning. I support my student’s literacy learning by creating engaging lessons and finding strengths in her reading that they may not notice. I try my best to compliment and support her progress by praising her when needed. My main focus in the beginning was to create trust. I believe once she trusted me that I want her to succeed, but to also trust me in the sense that she should do her best work, I began to notice that she tried her best once the moment of trust was built. I also try to create rapport with my student by getting to know her better and relating to her for a personal level. How I know if the student has mastered a topic in the lesson plan is based on the summative and formative assessments. The goal of my lessons is to improve my student’s fluency in

The first and the best lesson I got when I was a student in college is that whether we are in class or not, each day is a lesson independent from anyone else. As I go ahead toward my objective, I have developed and adapted such a great amount during the time to this point. Since I wind up noticeably youthful grown-up, integrity was not something I got just as support from my folks yet in addition anticipated. I went to the full comprehension behind the significance after I turn into an understudy. There were times when I confront the danger of losing and giving up my integrity. In any case, these sorts of circumstance are the one that causes you to hang on the esteem and comprehend the genuine significance behind the word. It intends to be consistent with one's self-esteem and convictions. This prompts ask an answer in regards to life and its advantages, which comes as a bundle including training and genuine involvement with Belmont. Lessons don't begin and end in the class, yet rather extend past or more. There is no limit or point of confinement to people longing to learn, ask and obtain more information.

I subcribe to the theory that best suits each individual’s need. One size does not fit all. I have never been an advocate structured test for grades because I do not believe that test give an accurate picture of what a student has learned. I am a lousy test taker, but ask me to write what I learned and I can go on for days. I am also not a fan of lecturing because it is boring not only to my students but also to me. I would much rather take a lesson and make it real, by using fun acitivies, videos and scenarios.

To be honest, I'm writing this for me as much as I am writing it for you.

Throughout my rigorous academic career, I have written numerous pieces of literature from research papers, poems, academic essays, and even tweets. In my rhetorical analysis, I will be analyzing a college essay in which I submitted to Bowling Green, Xavier, Toledo, and Ohio University. The reason I selected this piece to analyze is because this essay played a crucial role in determining where I would go to college, and it also describes me as a person, and my love for the city of Cleveland.

Is your life integrated? Are you able to be the same person in all aspects of your life—personal, work, family, community, college, classroom? If not, what is holding you back?

When you understand your emotions, you can keep them in check. When you know your weakness and strengths, it helps to keep you emotionally healthy. During this week, I have learned many new and interesting ideas like how to be in check, how to recognize feelings in a social situation and how I compare with my family and friends when it comes to my Emotional Intelegance.