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A Test Of Faith

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A Test of Faith As I sat in the church pew trying not to ask questions or cry uncontrollably I wonder if I will ever see him again. We all knew that he was not the boy that the pastor was remembering from vacation bible school. He had grown into someone we did not recognize. The kind of person who gets in trouble with the law and has to spend time in rehab. The guy that goes to a party and then never comes home. Elliot was never coming home and for the first time in my life I realized that the death of a loved one could be the last time I see them. My cousin was gone forever. Anytime I hear the song “I Can Only Imagine” by MercyMe I can be transported back to one of two places. I can close my eyes and be at Shocco Springs, summer camp the summer before I started high school. MercyMe is the worship band for the week of camp and my faith has never felt so strong. Anytime they played “I Can Only Imagine,” I found myself truly in awe and imagining the eternity I would spend in Heaven. I would be surrounded by everyone I loved and be in total peace. Fast forward two and a half years, the song that used to bring me peace is now causing nauseating heartbreak because I could only imagine Elliot not being in Heaven. I was raised in church. I spent as much time at my church as I did at home. I was taught about Heaven and Hell, but the actual existence of those places had no true consequence on my life until January 16, 2007. It was not until Elliot past that my beliefs on how to

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