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Research Paper On Judas

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By the next day, Ana's emotions flipped from vulnerability to spite; not spite for the sake of spite, and not spite in the name of laziness, but a sort of righteous hate.

Kat had no fucking idea what it meant to be God. Sure, she took care of the town, but she invested time and not suffering. She played it safe, staying so far ahead of the curve that she would never lose too much at once. She was too big to be hurt.

Being God means having your heart broken, all the time. It means putting your soul into something, only for that thing to sever itself from you without recognizing what it stole or fully appreciating the void it left in you. It means that you continually find your purpose in some new, fabulous and mysterious thing, which is torn …show more content…

She couldn't remember... It was something important, probably the most important detail that was left out of the Bible. In this book, Judas was depicted as the most loyal believer in Christ, even until the end. As the moment of crucifixion came closer and closer, Judas and Jesus grew nearly indiscernible from each other in every aspect of appearance, countenance and mannerism. So much so that, in the moment that Judas and Christ kissed each other on their respective cheeks, they appeared identical and in complete synchronicity. A wave of emptiness rushed through the spectators as they were left to decide which of the identical twins was evil and which was …show more content…

Loneliness was just a rug that her ego got swept under. The dirt wasn't removed, only hidden.

Katrina was the forbidden fruit, not Ana. Katrina was the false idol; the lie.

The meaning of her life was taken from her in the instant that Ana reached for Katrina; she had no meaning now, which was to say, she had no particular thing that was binding her or guiding her; no particular person or location or creed that would limit her or imprison her.

Ana remembered that Kat was about to tell the story of her family's death; she was to reveal the moment that trapped her in a state of arrested development; the trauma that made her choose to never allow another person to affect her or change her. And in revealing that moment, should would face it and embrace it and integrate it, and become free, finally.

Ana thought about how she felt a tinge of sadness when Kat said "I apologize, but you may never hear the rest of that story." She felt helpless, as if Kat was choosing to stay in hell and isolation. But that wasn't true at all; it was no longer necessary for her to face that pain, because she simply poured it into Ana, and it became her burden

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