- You Live With Him Now?. - He Bought Our House. He Said

Once the egwugwu went to confront Mr. Smith for the killing of one of their members, Mr. Brown’s ignorance and rudeness were revealed even greater than before when he refused to leave the grounds when asked. Because of the reputation and the friendships that were built by Mr. Brown, Mr. Smith was treated with the same respect when confronted by the spirits. Unfortunately, Mr. Smith still would not go and respect the wishes of “the spirits and leaders of Umuofia” despite their kindness regarding the situation at hand. Although “Mr. Smith stood his ground… he could not save his church” (pg. 191) and the hands of the egwugwu tore apart the hard work Mr. Brown put into the church in Umuofia before having to leave both physically and

All the I love you’s , and the dates , and the car rides , and the memories , and the jokes , and crying together , and laughing until we cried together and all the love we made , the sleepovers , hangout calls , phone sex lmao , just the past 2 years in general had meant the world to me and I know I will always love you . I don’t think there’ll ever come a day where I won’t and that's because you were my first love . You were the love that changed me , changed my my entire life .

We were never able to start together let alone get married, even though our love was unbreakable. It made sense it wouldn't work out at the time. She needed some one like Tom, someone with the old money which is what he has. He was stable and could offer her the world and thats what she needed and I couldn't give her that… at that time. This is why I have been fighting, fighting harder then I fought in WWI, for so long. Now look at me I'm swimming in my new money, I can offer her so much more now that Tom can. I could give her the universe as well as all my love.

“I don’t see this getting any better,” I stated blankly. I watched as the words pierced through her eyes and into her heart. I knew exactly what it had meant to say that, and so did she. I had basically said “There’s no chance i’ll stay together with you, and now we are over.”

“When I fall in love with a girl, I see her as center of world; I want spend every second with her and I am willing to do everything for her. Before I went abroad, she promised that she will wait for me, no matter how long, and I believed in her, of course. Four months of waiting is a hell. I work hard every day, as I promised, for buying her a beautiful engagement ring. I know she is going to be happy. I started to feel anxious. What did she do today, Why didn’t she contact me, Will she love somebody else? I am so afraid of losing her. I keep asking her, Do you still love me? She says I am like little girl. She is right; I should be strong enough, she is waiting for me! But distance is a poison that can destroy love. One month before I go back, she changed. She began to not talk to me anymore. I awake from sleep and find my phone, “I miss you”. “Ok, go back to sleep.” When I awake again in morning, telling her, I still miss you. She says, I know. Good

It was good to hear from you. I don't know though Rob. I can't be just your friend, it was too deep for me. I don't think we were ever on the same page, I always was ready and wanted more than you. You say I'm annoying but that's because I don't know how to deal with being hurt. You just block everything out, I can't do that. I don't know how to deal with hurt feelings so I lash out and act crazy. I say hurtful things because I'm hurt. I tried time and time again but you didn't want nothing to do with me, and believe it or not, that's okay. It's okay. You hurt me more than anybody or any heartbreak I ever had. You're the only person in this world to ever get me pregnant. Then, regardless of my decision, you left me, no support, no are you okay, nothing. Steve told me you need all the support you can get right now, but when I needed support you were no where to be found. I am content with my decision and after a year I finally am okay. I realize I would have been alone. You made your decision, and I made mine and I am at peace with it.

Losing you has changed me in so many ways. I wish I could go back in time and have a conversation with you about this. I get it now. I get the look in your eyes when you would look at me so earnestly and tell me that I had to put myself first. That unimportant things didn’t matter. That life was short. It weighed on you every.single.day. and god I wish I could have grabbed your shoulders and looked you square in the eye and told you that I got it. For you to have been seen and understood 100% in that moment. But life only makes sense in hindsight.

Let me start off with an apology. When things first began, it was simple. So it goes that life eases into a dull, rhythmic, verse. You got lost and that’s my fault. All I am is sorry. Where did you go, I wonder? I ripped you from my warmth so many times in the velvet of night. So many times you stayed hidden amongst the shelves and floorboards; finding yourself reserved to that small corner on the sofa. What were you thinking of then? Somehow, you always found your way back to me. Somehow you tangled yourself around my skin and frighten off the chill. This…this feels like goodbye. Where did you go? How neglectful I was to disregard you- the very thing that gave me so much consistent comfort. My soul bearer of entertainment on rainy days and

Hey...it’s me, Zach. Remember the year and a half I wasted on you, thinking you were the one for me? I used to be so in love with you. You used to make me feel so good, and I just don’t know what happened. We were extremely happy in the beginning, but I guess that’s just how it goes. Two people meet and they decide that they love each other, they give their all, but what comes with that is losing yourself. You put so much of yourself into another person to make them happy, and for a little while they do the same. Like you did...you used to love me. You used to be there for me when I’d have anxiety attacks late at night about whether or not we’d stay together. You would comfort me and tell me that you weren’t going anywhere. You were just always there, and I guess I took that for granted.

I make eye contact this time, “I think we saw this coming. I think it’s meant to be. I’m sorry but, I’m breaking up with you.” I’m sorry. I am so so sorry. Please fight for me. Please tell me something to make me take you back. You know I will if you just Say. Something. Please.

This is just for you and me to know and read Anna, I don't want you to show it to anyone else... Now that we have that out of the way I just want to say well I don't really know what to say honestly I mean I don't want you to think I regret the time we had together cause I did enjoy it for the time it lasted but there were things I really didn't like as well like the constant fighting and I know it's not just your fault it is mine as well like on our anniversary when we got in that fight I was ent really thinking clearly but a few moments after I definitely was.. I don't really mean to make us argue but if I don't find anything to argue about then you do and it's always right when I get close enough to you again to start getting attached then it's like something in you just changes like the day at that band thing after school when your parents were there you just completely ignored me like I was nothing to you and that's about how it feels now.. but I mean when you did it then it kinda stuck out exactly what you wanted with me or at least what it felt like I mean truthfully I know I'm

I know you're feeling like you're choosing between a rock and a hard place right now. I know how uncertain you are about the future and how you just don't see it working out. For once I am going to follow my heart and leave my mind out of this. Separation at this time isn't going to make either of us any happier. Because of your uncertainty, I think you need guidance and I'm capable of giving you that guidance. I know you love and care about me. One thing I was reminded of was how strong our connection and chemistry are. Lately though we've been distant in almost all ways (physically, emotionally). It literally feels like the universe is pulling us away from each other. But regardless of everything, I think we will make it and still think

I miss us. The way we talk. I miss us being able to hang out. This gradual shift has turned this friendship into something that’s hard to describe. I think I want too much of the old ways in which we were and can’t adjust well to the way things are now. I don’t want to be a burden to you or make this into a dark mess but I’m really at a loss of what to do from here on out. I question a lot of things that are apparent because I don’t want to really think things have just faded out, not us, you know. At the same though, I want to remain present to what you need. In the same respect of needing space, I need it for other reasons but not from you.

I have been respecting your wishes in not contacting you, though I admit that it is one of the hardest things I have ever done. I wait nightly to see if you’ll pray to me, or text, or call, and every night you don’t. From talking to Rachel, I have come to understand that I didn’t do anything to make you leave, even if it does feel that way. She also tells me that there is nothing I can do to make you come back, and while I didn’t know if that is true, I had to try with this letter.

“We were meant to to adventure together, to explore, to create and destroy. What happened to that? What happened to you? You aren 't the same woman I fell in love with.” I reached for her hands but she drew them away quickly. “We barely talk anymore. Do I no longer make you happy?” I paused but heavy breathing was the only sound to fill the silence. “Won’t you answer me?” I snapped.