My Biggest Mistake Essay

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My Biggest Mistake I never knew when it started, this obsession. Didn’t even realize how slowly and steadily what I thought I could control controlled me. I am not like most people my likes, dislikes and feelings differ from most of the crowd. When did I become someone who cared so much what other people think of me? Now that I think about it, it baffles me how I slowly and steadily from being an individual who preaches about being different suddenly became someone who just wanted to fit in to other people’s expectations. And suddenly I feel I woke up to realize what kind of a slave I had become. Well to start up on my mistakes, my first one was ever thinking that I can be in a relationship with my best friend. I screwed that up pretty …show more content…

And I would always go back with him. I wonder why? Was it my ego? The fact that I wanted to hurt him much more than he ever did? Or did I actually like him so? Whatever the reason this continued till finally before the final week before my exam I broke it off swearing I cannot screw up this too like my boards. But who knew I had already screwed this up to by constantly living in loathing and vengeance. I had to settle for the second best and did not get the institution of my choice. I cried. Oh how I cried. How much I hated the fact that I will have to go to the place that I never wanted to go to and had sworn I wouldn’t. But I still got up dusted off and walked. But this stupid human tendency to want something which is never good for you, it wasn’t done with me. Oh no not yet it said and dragged me back. This institution still gave me that opportunity to grow. But no I went and ruined it there too with not one but four people. And now I m left here looking at wreckage. Examining what went wrong and now I realize it. It wasn’t them it was me. I could have easily minded my own business. Stuck to my priorities but I instead signed the sheet to my own ruin. I guess it was my fault. I have suddenly woken up as a much wiser person. Also the question how do I keep getting dragged into such stuff? I am really young for this. I do not want get into this and now I put my foot down. I absolutely refuse to go down this path again. I swear my priorities from this moment forth is

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