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The Great Gatsby Monologue Essay

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I sat there, numb, unmoving, my breathing shallow. I just sat there thinking about the time I was able to spend with him. The way his little fingers would grasp my larger hand. I sat there remembering how his sad little smile could warm my heart, even on my worst day. Then I remembered my reluctance to get close to him, knowing he wouldn’t be able to stay with us long. I remembered how I would never volunteer to hold him, not wanting to bond with the sweet boy that would leave before he had the chance to walk or even utter his first syllable. I felt a cold regret slowly seep into my body, regret for not loving on him more than I did, more than I should have. I remember the dark clouds looming heavy above, filled with potential moisture ready to be released to the ground. I remember sitting on the soft chair of the funeral home next to my family. But mostly I remember my little brother lying so still, so peaceful, in the small white box meant to preserve him from the cold grasps of deterioration. Bouquets of colorful flowers surrounded him and how out of place they looked with the gloomy atmosphere. He was dressed in the sharpest little white suit, his hair done as the Great Gatsby himself. He looked so angelic lying there, unmoving, painless. He looked as though he was finally free, free of the pain from the terrible convulsions that racked his tiny …show more content…

Everyone had wonderful things to say, but they all seemed empty, superficial. No one wanted to mention that we would never get to see him grow into the chubby toddler he could have been, or see his first steps. He would never get a first love, or a last. I felt my heart tighten in my chest as I looked upon him. My sister grabbed my hand then, and squeezed it. I felt my eyes water and threaten to flow over with tears. I promised myself I would not cry, that I would eventually see him again. I guess that is the error of humanity though, to only comprehend the immediate pain, if we ever do at

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