Self Care Activity Of Meditation

1378 Words Aug 3rd, 2015 6 Pages
There is nothing good that I can say about today. I have felt sick and nauseated all day. The events that occurred in this city today are unspeakable. I am usually in complete control of my emotions, but to my embarrassment, I lost control of them and I cannot seem to regain control. At first, I felt shocked, when the media released the name of the shooter, I felt like someone had punched me in the stomach. I thought there was no way it could be the same person, there was no way it could be my former co-worker and friend’s brother. Turns out it was. I am heartbroken for the marines who were murdered and their families who have been so heinously, irrevocably altered, but I am also heartbroken for my friend and her family. I feel guilty for the last sentiment, in light of everything, but I can help but be heartbroken for them as well. I have decided to use the self-care activity of meditation to try to process my feelings and regain some emotional control. Right now, I am in a very bad mental and emotional state; I hope that his activity will help.
The meditation was extremely difficult, but I feel like I am in a better emotional state. I felt the need to lie down, so I lay on my couch and tried to meditate. It lasted a little over twenty minutes. I am not comfortable talking about the thoughts that processed through my head, they are much too personal at the moment, but I will discuss the feelings. Initially, I became more upset, angry, confused and emotionally out of…
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