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Why Do I Feel Alone Essay

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I feel so alone. Like part of me is always stressing about if I’ll ever make new friends while I start my freshman year in high school. I am going to a whole different high school than all my other friends back at my middle school. I’m so worried that I won’t succeed in my HTSP exam. I’m so worried that I would have to sit all alone in an empty table during lunch, not knowing anyone at all. You see, the more I realize how alone I am, the more I feel it. Every time I am depressed, I want to have someone there for me, not just a random friend that I go to whenever I am feeling sad and next year later they are gone. I want someone to be there for me, for a life time. I want to know that they will listen to how I am feeling and actually give me …show more content…

I don’t want to be thinking if I would fail or not. I am not confident at all with myself to be honest, but I want to be. I want to be intelligent, successful, full of happiness. But I know that part of that will never happen. I can’t always be happy, I will always have different emotions all miscellaneous together even if I am clueless of why I feel this way. I want to be happy. I want to finish high school. I want to go to college. But I want to be an actress. I want to act in different movies. I want to play different characters, even characters I am opposite from. I want to be known. I want to feel known. I also want to become a singer, but I don’t think I have a certain brain to create songs like Sia does, or like Katy Perry. Although I have a sudden urge to type how I feel about things, I most likely just fail. I never kept a diary for more than two days. I can type how I feel in less than 5 minutes. The thing is I am so confused, angry, depressed, stressed, lack of conscious, that I don’t know who I am anymore. I lost myself completely. I have forgotten what I have stood for. I am so angry all the time and I have no idea why. I am depressed when I don’t want to

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