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Analysis: Blurring The Lines

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Lynsey Dancy Mrs. Warner Contemporary Literature 28 October, 2015 Blurring the Lines Come up with a lie. Not just any lie; a lie that you tell yourself so many times, not even you know if it’s true anymore or not. When the burning feeling in your stomach is too loud to hear the thoughts from your head tell you memories from the night before, to know if your lie is even a lie anymore is when it gets hard. You’ve become so consumed with guilt that you tell yourself that this lie is a reality. “I want to know what happened; I wish I knew what I had to be sorry for. I try to desperately make sense of an elusive fragment of memory” (Hawkins, 43). Hawkins pulls from an unreliable narrative to blur the lines between fantasy and reality to confuse …show more content…

She’s not just unreliable to other people or the reader— she can’t even trust herself. She can’t trust her own memory; she can’t trust her own judgment. But we’re seeing her at her absolute worst, I think. So for me, she's actually a person where there’s probably plenty of good things about her, and I hope those things start to come in” (Gale). Looking at Rachel’s issues was one of the most interesting parts of the book. She’s more than pathetic on the surface, but has way more complexity than meets the eye. She ends up showing tenacity, courage, and sense of self-worth in her narrative. The way Hawkins let it play out made the change in Rachel completely believable. Although a drunk’s narrative isn’t the best to believe; we find out that she’s not as innocent or guilty as she seems. Her blackouts with drinking too much alcohol and the trauma that they caused her is more than fascinating. Rachel longs to remember what happens when she drinks too much to remember, yet she continues to drink. She is consumed with guilty when she has a thought about her killing Megan. The biggest part of this fascination was how vulnerable these blackouts made her and how this vulnerability paralleled with her shame about her blackouts and how they caused her to believe that she was worse off than she probably was. She felt forced, almost, to be a part of the investigation for …show more content…

During the golf club incident, for example, she didn't feel anger and rage—she felt fear. This is empowering for Rachel, and it enables her to tackle the blackout she had the night of Megan's disappearance. When she does, she uncovers fear of Tom and a memory that Tom got into a car with Megan. And so Rachel realizes that Tom, always the philanderer, was having an affair with Megan and killed her. Rachel theoretically kills two birds with one stone here. She solves Megan's murder and she absolves herself of the guilt accumulated from her relationship with Tom. This dual accomplishment inspires Rachel to sober up and start anew. We last see Rachel on a vacation to clear her mind. Where do you think she'll go the next time she gets on a

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