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`` Blood Memory `` By Bev Sellars

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Gregory Younging defines the concept of “blood memory as: “…the experiences of those that have gone before us is embedded in our physical and psychological being” (296). One does not have to be a “survivor” of the residential schools to be impacted by the institution; rather, “blood memory” is a collective experience that entails responsibility towards the victims and their families, notes Younging (297). Author Bev Sellars, in her memoir They Called Me Number One is an example of this notion. Throughout the memoir, Sellars is constantly surrounded by feelings of guilt, shame and inadequacy, which the residential school instills in her. After leaving the Mission (residential school), she realizes the destructive influences of residential …show more content…

During her time at the school, Sellars mentions how the children would often use humor as a defence mechanism to deal with the pain that was inflicted upon them. She states, “We joked about our lives and the things that happened to us, otherwise we would have drowned in our tears. I was so grateful for their crazy humour many times” (80). In this passage, Sellars states that the pain of being separated from their families and living in impoverished circumstances was immense and they would often displace those “negative” feelings with humour. At the time, humour was the means through which the children could deal with their agony and it was the only way they could avoid succumbing to their feeling of displacement. In one scenario, Sellars mentions how the children would turn antagonistic towards each other. There were times when the children would bully and taunt each other, which Sellars believes was the result of the “abuse inflicted upon them” (88). This exemplifies the concept of anger displacement in which the children projected their own anger onto their fellow classmates to deal with their repressed emotions. Further, Sellars also acknowledges that her brother Bobby suffered from displaced anger: “I realized that, because he didn’t know how to vent his anger, humiliation, fear, and whatever other emotions he was feeling towards the real cause, he took out his rage on the easiest target, which usually happened to be me” (99) This is ironic in

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