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I Am A Great Scholar

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I am I have excelled in academics since I was a child. I was that girl who graded papers, tutored, took attendance, took names, and was obsessed with making an “A” on everything. I would cry immensely if I received “C’” on my report card. My definition of a great scholar was rooted solely in my grades. My intense hunger for academic excellence, was firmly embedded in my belief in phantom expectations. These phantoms followed me everywhere. They sunk their claws into my mind and seized me. I always felt I had to prove that I was a smart as everyone believed. Every good grade brought a sense of validation and temporarily silenced the phantoms. However, I have neither retained nor enjoyed much throughout my academic career because it has always been about proving my intelligence to someone else. However, since I graduated from undergrad, I have decided that being a scholar is not what I originally believed it to be. It is not about a perpetual cycle of proving my self-worth. It is about being brave enough to believe in something and having the resources to support it. Now that I am here at Ohio State, I am more determined to learn all that I can while I am here. I will continually strive to put forward my best work, but phantom expectations will no longer have such a strong hold on my mind. I am starting my new journey as a scholar to better myself and grow as a person. I do not have anything to prove to anyone. I have watched myself to grow as an artist over time. My

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