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Personal Narrative: A Metamorphosis

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Madeira deFreitas PAX 253 Dr. Furman A Metamorphosis Pure desperation is vomiting behind public dumpsters, or stealing laxatives from Target; it is shoving food into your pockets and your hair, hoping no one witnessed you scraping the butter from you slice of toast, storing the excess behind your fingernails. It is wearing ankle weights to yearly physicals, donating blood to “shed a few quick pounds”, and bringing plastic sandwich bags to Thanksgiving dinner to avoid eating the beautifully prepared meal. I was ten years old when I read that I could eat whatever I wanted without gaining weight, permitted that I was willing to carry a toothbrush around in my bag. Little did I know at the time that my playing with such dangerous behavior would then lead to my brain waging war against my body, a series of battles that I would consistently lose over the course of the next nine years. The summer before my junior year of highschool I surpassed rock bottom. By this time, I was …show more content…

I met my boyfriend nearly five pounds from my lowest weight, at a time in my life when I was heavily grieving my sense of self and worth. Pale blue, paper thin, and gaunt beyond disbelief, he found me as an injured bird whose wings had been clipped, feathers had been plucked, and beak had been stapled shut, and he nursed me back to health. He transformed the way I saw the world, as well as the way I saw myself. He gave me love and adoration, compassion and understanding, patience and gentleness when I, in no capacity, believed that I deserved it. I stand today, 25 pounds later, a revolutionized woman. Throughout the process of this metamorphosis I held tight to this newly established feeling of hope that Jake had gifted to me. I began to graciously accept his love and support, and harmoniously, as partners and companions, we were able to turn my life around and give it new

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