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Analysis Of My Life

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Hello,

I hope you’re having a great day. I’ve been meaning to mention a few things to you for a while now, but I can’t bring myself to say it in person. I hope this will do. In a way, I don’t think therapy is working for me. Unfortunately I feel like it’s making things worst. I’ll try to explain my thought process, but it might be hard to understand what I’m trying to say and I apologize for that in advance.

As you may have realized a little bit, I am the type of person who can’t open up to anyone. Since I’m so used to that, I feel like I’ve learned to suppress or ignore some of my least desirable feelings. Or at least, I’ve learned to keep them to myself and control them a little bit. With that being said, I’m also the type of person …show more content…

It’s a possible defense mechanism that can’t be broken. For that reason, I feel like you’re not going to be able to truly help me since you don’t have all the information in order to do so. That’s totally my fault, not yours. I know I’m not suppose to tell you everything about myself, but like I have to tell you some things and be honest in order for you to be able to help me and I can’t do that because of the barrier I’ve created. So in my mind since you can’t really help me I feel bad because I feel like you could be spending your time doing something else or like helping someone else instead.

I’ve realized that almost all the things I’ve been telling you since our first session, are the things that aren’t really “deep and personal issues” mainly because they’re so obvious and I’m so used to them. For example, me telling you that I feel like I’m no one or that I get really nervous when my mom drives is like me telling you my favourite colour is blue. It’s like I’m not telling you the bigger issues or I’m not telling you something that has that big of a meaning to me. They’re just small facts. I know I have to start somewhere and normally people start working on smaller things before moving on to “bigger things”, but I can’t see myself working on “bigger issues”.

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