My Childhood - Original Writing

My entire life, I’ve known that there was something a little different about me. The way that my classmates interacted with each other was always strange to me. Valentine’s Day didn’t make sense and watching Disney movies where the princess always gets her prince just didn’t feel right. I tried to think like my male classmates and feign feelings for girls. It was not until middle school when I finally began to understand exactly why I was so different. I’m gay. And this scared me.

I knew something was off in sixth grade when I realized that maybe, possibly, it wasn’t “normal” to have a crush on both the female and male lead in every disney channel original movie. I chose to ignore it until the age of 14 when my best friend told me that she had a crush on me. We fell madly in love (or at least as madly in love as 14 year olds can be). After that, I just kind of assumed that I was a lesbian because I didn’t know there was anything else. We eventually split, because her mom sent her to conversion therapy where we weren’t allowed to contact each other, but that is a

Seven years earlier, I migrated to Hawaii when I was twenty-three. I had flown away from my mother and my life in the Philippines. Like young adults and being rebellious, I wanted to live on my own away from my mother 's roof. I left the city life I grew up with in the Philippines in hope of a better life in another country.

Ever since I was a young and naive adolescent with no knowledge of sexuality, I have felt only attraction to girls. Not only did I feel this attraction, but I have always showed evident signs of being gay before I knew it was a thing. For example, often as a kid I went against “the norm” by not being extremely girly and expressing a love for gay

When asked to write a candid and self-revealing journal about my experiences, thoughts, feelings and beliefs related to human sexuality, I became intrigued. Throughout my early life, my own sexuality has been something of considerable focus because I knew that I was different than the average boy. Later, I discovered this difference was called being gay, homosexual, a faggot, or queer. I remember these names stinging just a bit because I did not want to be different than other boys, I just wanted to be accepted and close to other boys. Consequently, my identity orbited around numerous fears, thoughts, and reactions by others and me to how I subsisted as a person because of what I discovered about myself during my journey through childhood,

One night in February, I hid from my mom in a closet. When she found me and asked what I was doing, I told her, "I'm coming out. I'm transgender." The past several months for me have been a very trying experience, but I have grown a bit through it, and I have discovered a lot about who I am.

When I was around 14, I began to question my sexuality and gender. For years, I felt like I was pressured to be hetereosexual by society and my family. I was paranoid. I was depressed. I was convinced that everyone was silently judging. Eventually,

I’ve known I was gay ever since the age of ten. I went to a Christian high school in Nicaragua and was actively involved in leadership positions and volunteering jobs like translating, so coming out at that time was not an option for me. I always kept my sexuality at the back of my mind because it would ruin my image of the Christian leader that I was to all the students who saw me in this position of leadership. Since I started at the University of Waterloo, I was not as active in clubs like I was in high school. Consequently, the image that I was so used to displaying never went into effect during my first year; I could be whoever I wanted to be and no one would think either less or more of me. This led to allowed me to accept my sexuality exponentially, and of course struggle with the truth I was running away from my whole high school life. I wouldn’t go as far to say that I became depressed over acknowledging my homosexuality, but it sure provided me with a lot of stress and questions I would ask myself: what will my friends say? What will my sister think? How am I going to tell this to my parents? Who am I going to come out first to?

At the age of 12 and like most other boy, my maturing sequence was started and it changed my life. My voice cracked and got deeper, I grew hair on my chest, my legs, and places that I did not expect to have hair when I was young. In 2009, all these things were happen to me except an important one: feelings for girls. At first, it did not bother me that much because I supposed my mentality would not be affected by puberty. But at time went on and seeing all of my friends have girlfriends, I decided to get one too but shocked after I found out that I fixated to guys instead of girls. I went to bed with my mind spinning around guys and eventually had an erection in the morning, I started to get confused and really worried about my feeling but

I believe one’s upbringings and childhood environment defines a person. In addition, I believe one’s life experience forms one’s sexual orientation as well as biological factors. I have been very sheltered in life and was not expose to a lot of things. For example, I don’t remember seeing gay people as a child. However, I do remember my parents talking about gay people, but whenever I asked what gay meant, my parents refused to answer. Therefore, I didn’t really know there was an option other than heterosexual. I question how exactly not knowing about homosexuality has played a role in my own sexual orientation; On one hand, I believe by not being exposed that led me to be heterosexual, and on the other hand, I believe I just don’t have the biological factors of a homosexual person. I do not know what makes me heterosexual and other homosexual. Furthermore, I don’t truly remember having an aha-moment about my sexual orientation, mainly because I haven’t truly had any relationships with people in general. However, it was very clear I liked guys beginning in high school—I fan-girled at every friend my brother brought home. I do find it strange that it took me until high school to actually want a relationship. I don’t know if this is due to being sheltered and told not to have a relationship until after twenty-five or if I developed later. I distinctly remember friends asking me why I didn’t fangirl at guys in gym class in middle school. Instinctively, the very next moment, I

The physical and social aspects of my world have definitely played a part in my sexual orientation. In my adolescent years I felt a strong physical attraction to males. Even if I did not understand why I had such feelings, they were strong and undeniable. I witnessed the affection between my mother and father and identified that type of affection to be normal. All of my friends also identified with these same types of feelings. Even the G rated Disney movies we watched illustrated love to be between a man and a woman. I was sheltered from homosexuality, so I did not have a problem or any other type of curiosities until that concept was introduced to me in the fifth grade. I asked many questions and began to view the world around me differently. I would look at girls and wonder how it would feel to embrace them as I had always known to only be between a man and a woman.

Once upon a time there was a town, where children played all over. During the day, children would be playing games in the driveway, yards, and cul-de-sac. Voices of children could be heard by the creek. At night they would chase fireflies and their tiny shadows covered the roads. They would play together until they heard the call from their parents for bed. They’d sleep happily from playing all day under the trees. This is not a made up story but memories of many people’s childhoods. But such memories are not passed on to current generations. Modern day childhood has dissolved to being unimaginative, quiet, and robotic. Children are brainwashed to screens, and have a test driven education. Modern society is ruining childhoods with technology, test driven education and limited interactions.

1.To be honest, the only way I understood how my behaviors should be as a girl child was by observation. I watched TV and observed all the women and men around me. I can say I wasn 't pursued to be one way or the other. As I grow up I wanted to wear less dresses and more shorts, do daredevil things that boys do, play football, and basketball. I was considered a tomboy by my friends. I wanted nice tennis shoes, not sandals. At that time, I wasn’t thinking about my sexual orientation I just wasn 't interesting in play with dolls like most little girls I saw.

Lesbian, Gay and Bi-sexual individuals, often times referred to, as LGB individuals, are those in society who can be defined and characterized by their sexual orientation. Sexual orientation is a term that can be complex and diverse. Sexual orientation is a variable that has varied throughout history and depends on different factors that are personal to the individual themselves. Although the term sexual orientation is a difficult term to define, for the purpose of this paper, LGB sexual orientation and homosexuality can be acknowledged as a person with sexual interest in attraction to members of one owns sex with orientation towards people of the same gender in sexual behavior, affection or

I had been wondering about some things in life as I was heading through my teen years and sexuality was one of them. I was nineteen but I still wasn’t sure what boat I wanted to catch yet. I liked boys don’t get me wrong but sexual activity with them just wasn’t exciting and arousing.